Chemical Depression this far out?

[[gr...]]

How can my severe major depression be from Klonopin at 20 months off.

 

People say it will lift and its "chemical depression". How can that be if I don't have any chemicals in me?

 

Im at end of rope. 3 years bedridden, my health failing in so many ways.

 

Im setting up ECT treatment now because if I don't do something I wont make it another year.

If ECT doesn't help I don't know what to do, its my last option.

 

 

[[Si...]]

Damn juice, sorry to hear you're still having problems. I wish I had some advice, but I don't. You're one of my buddies from way back. I had pretty bad depression for a long time, but not nearly as bad as yours. Somehow mine just luckily lifted in month 19 and has been gone ever since. That's how I knew for sure mine was w/d related. I did start taking krill oil every night and tart cherry juice with ginger and turmeric. That plus prescribed vitamin d. My vit d was really low. I have no way to prove if any of those were what helped or not. I did seem to come out of my worst symptoms after about 4-5 months of that. I'm still on the vit d2 prescription every two weeks I take one 50k iu pill. My level is up to 30 from a 24. Again no idea for sure if that's what did it, or if it would even help anyone else. I hope you get some relief soon.

[[mi...]]

It is called chemical depression because it was bought on by the chemicals in benzos. They alter the way your brain fires chemicals, even after they leave your system. I am 9 months off Valium use and are in a deep depression. I too are bed ridden. I believe that benzos have stripped my brain of happy chemicals and my brains ability to fire these chemicsls. Im simply waiting for them to boot up and start working again. I went through this in 2008-2009 coming of anti-psycotics. It took me years to feel normal again. I'm now going through it with benzos. Never thought I would go through this again. I considered ECT in 2008 but didn't go through with it. I hope what ever you decide you have a peace about it. I just want you to know my depression did lift in the past and that I'm thinking of you as I'm also bed ridden, hoping yours will pass also. I'm once again waiting for my brain to heal. I believe yours can and will heal also.

[[gr...]]

Thanks people....I just cant sit and wait any longer thus the ect route. Im dying and I mean literally.

[[Ti...]]

How have you refrained from not harming yourself?  The pain is unreal. Im beginning to think i have a tumor.  They're is no way im this bad. The burning in my nose and brain is ridiculous. Same symptoms?

[[Ti...]]

How have you refrained from not harming yourself?  The pain is unreal. Im beginning to think i have a tumor.  They're is no way im this bad. The burning in my nose and brain is ridiculous. Same symptoms?

[[Ti...]]

How can you hold on. Do u have burning?  Nose and brain?

[[Ch...]]

We know this is tough and thoughts get desperate at times.  Let me put the link to hotlines here: Self Harm Policy and remind everyone to stay within the posting guidelines as far as subject matter.

 

This will all be a bad memory some day, but until then, keep reminding yourselves this is temporary.

Take care of yourselves.  We care about you.

 

Challis 

[[lg...]]

Hi Groovejuice, I know how you feel I have only been off for a few weeks I was forced into cold turkey by my doctor and going to rehab.

 

I know there is something going on in me that is different than anything I have experienced in my whole life. I actually am suffering quite a bit from Suicide Ideation and I am so depressed I don't want to leave the house, family and friends try to help me but I don't like talking on the phone anymore to anyone.

 

I am now a suicidal recluse and this is a first for my life. I have always been a happy person who gets out with family and friends and friends and I maintained those relationships. Now when people call and leave messages I don't call them back half the time. I hate talking on the phone now and all this stuff is new.

 

I can tell the derealization and depersonalization in myself becauz I don't know myself and I def don't feel any connection to my family and friends anymore.

 

I'm sorry I should take my problems to another forum. Anyway I am with you. It scares me you are so far out becuas I cannot imagine it myself. I wish you all the best and I hope things get better for you.

[[gr...]]

Gibson Im sorry ur suffering also...and anyone else whos depression is severe. Don't compare yourself to me and scare yourself more.

Many peoples depression has lifted at some point. If you never suffered before, im sure you will be OK eventually.

 

I like you never return calls or answer the phone. Its actually disconnected. I understand.

[[Be...]]

have you tried antidepressants?

[[gr...]]

Yes...more then a dozen different ones. ADs are bull...I don't believe they work at all. If they do, the person is not as depressed as they think...placebo effect. Just my opinion based on my experience.

[[Da...]]

Hey Groovejuice.  Did you ever do the ECT?  I hope you're feeling better.  I get depressed a lot.  It will start off as anxiety and then morph into depression.

 

 

Are you still bedridden?  I pray you get some relief soon.

[[gr...]]

No ECT yet. Im in middle of testing for heavy metals in body....t can mess with neurotransmitters. Ive been looking for a cause for 10 years, this is the only thing I never tested. I worked in Manufacturing all my life...before Management I was a Laser Machinist and cut, welded lots of metals. Relatives want me to test this before going for ECT.

 

Yes Im still laying in bed 15-17 hrs a day. Im out of gas....spent....not much will power left to chase wellness.

TY for asking.

[[gi...]]

At 27 months out my depression kicked in even more, so sleepy with fatique, dont want to do anything at all. My burning pain has eased in half which is good but its still there.

[[gr...]]

TY for info.....