Anybody help?

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2 months today and it is the worst day ever. I was doing better

 

Today incredible anxiety, foggy head like in the beginning, stomach churning and upset, burning and cold, muscle cramping. Felt good last night.

Is this how is goes? I am freaking out, want to go to hospital and have them fix me but there is nothing they can do. They will give me drugs that will make it worse. Anyone with any wisdom help me. Talk me through this

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2 months today and it is the worst day ever. I was doing better

 

Today incredible anxiety, foggy head like in the beginning, stomach churning and upset, burning and cold, muscle cramping. Felt good last night.

Is this how is goes? I am freaking out, want to go to hospital and have them fix me but there is nothing they can do. They will give me drugs that will make it worse. Anyone with any wisdom help me. Talk me through this

 

Hi, I'm sorry you're feeling this way today.  This is what we call a "wave," which means you are suddenly feeling worse than you have in awhile.  Benzo withdrawal is full of these kinds of extreme ups and downs (windows and waves), especially early in withdrawal.  It's not a linear process, and the windows and waves are perfectly normal.  You're only two months off now so you're probably just coming out of acute withdrawal.  This is often the time when the worst symptoms appear.

 

As time goes by, your symptoms will lessen and you'll eventually heal.  Meanwhile, rest as much as possible and distract yourself from your symptoms as best as you can.  You will get through this!

 

megan918

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Thanks for talking to me. Usuallly I can tell myself it is just symptoms but today everything is awful I soumd so pitiful I am so tired. I think it is harder to feel awful after feeling good. How did you make it?

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Thanks for talking to me. Usuallly I can tell myself it is just symptoms but today everything is awful I soumd so pitiful I am so tired. I think it is harder to feel awful after feeling good. How did you make it?

 

I had a very long healing period since I'd been on high doses of Xanax for years, and had had two previous withdrawals.  People like yourself who were on lower doses for less time generally don't go through what I did.  For details, please see my success story, linked below.  But here's what helped me more than anything else:

 

When my mental and physical symptoms were overwhelming me during acute withdrawal,  knew I had to do something, and "distraction" is what came to me.  I don't mean the kind of distraction that one only does "if they feel like it."  I somehow knew I HAD to do this, and to keep doing it until I got through the acute stage. So, I distracted myself relentlessly and obsessively, using whatever worked in the moment and then switching to something else as soon as the previous thing stopped working.  I used my very obsessiveness to do this. It was a stream of consciousness thing where I made use of whatever popped into my head (there was no preplanning of what to do next).  I distracted myself this way over and over until it became a habit.  It was my main "job" every day, and it was serious business.  Interestingly, it wasn't long before I actually started looking forward to my favorite distractions!  I kept doing this for many months, and in time my symptoms began to fall away one by one.  It was a long process, one day at a time, and there was no knowing how things would eventually turn out.  But I just kept on doing this, moment by moment, day by day, and eventually at about 20 months off I healed.

 

 

 

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Thanks again for saving me today. I hope for spring. I will be better and it won't be so darm cold.  The cold makes my burning skin freeze, so annoying. I am glad you made it through, I know I will with the help of people like you

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Hi,

 

I am just a little bit ahead of you,(three months off) I just posted that I am experiencing some horrific insomnia,but thankfully,some of the things that you are experiencing now have dropped off for me. I went through a period at two months where I was so anxious and depressed that I couldn't sit still,all I could do that would help would be to pace the floor. I was admitted to the hospital for 5 days before Christmas because I didn't sleep for 4 days and began hallucinating. They were able to get me sleeping,but now it is creeping back in,and the pacing has yet begun again...All I can say is try to hang on,I'm right there with ya'

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Thanks for the encouragenent  Not sleeping is so hard