AM I LOSING MY MIND? SERIOUSLY?? THIS CANNOT BE NORMAL.

[Guest [Lu...]]

The intrusive thoughts are driving me to the edge. Seriously. It feels like my brain has been hijacked. It's either a song, an image, a sound from a video game or something. And my thoughts can barely break through this wall of sound in my brain. And sometimes they just can't. It's like my brain is blank and can't think sometimes and it just gets all these intrusive things. It starts from the second I wake up and barely just BARELY calms down right before bed. Is this really normal? I truly can't live like this. I can't do it. I'm used to the looping songs, but this is a whole nother ball game. Please tell me this is normal and it will go away. PLEASE.

[Guest [Lu...]]

Anyone...please....anyone.

[[be...]]

Unfortunately intrusive thoughts are fairly normal. We have some other members suffering from them as well right now. I personally do not have any firsthand experience with intrusive thoughts. I can only imagine how frightening they are. I do know that they are only temporary like other symptoms and should subside as time goes on. It looks like you are early into your withdrawal. You may want to add your use and dates to your signature line.

[Guest [su...]]

luigi..

 

this is so classic w/d sxs ..i was exactly like this for a while..i didn't know if i'd ever be sane again. many people have this sx it's w/d for sure ..it's not nice but it is w/d.. i was sooooooo bad and it does go away..you have to hang in and be strong and try to remember it goes away.. my heart is with you because i know the feeling believe me..

 

sussie... be strong.

[[me...]]

The intrusive thoughts are driving me to the edge. Seriously. It feels like my brain has been hijacked. It's either a song, an image, a sound from a video game or something. And my thoughts can barely break through this wall of sound in my brain. And sometimes they just can't. It's like my brain is blank and can't think sometimes and it just gets all these intrusive things. It starts from the second I wake up and barely just BARELY calms down right before bed. Is this really normal? I truly can't live like this. I can't do it. I'm used to the looping songs, but this is a whole nother ball game. Please tell me this is normal and it will go away. PLEASE.

 

Yes, this is a common withdrawal symptom.  When I was in acute withdrawal, I was suffering from dreadful physical and mental symptoms.  I truly felt I was going insane, and was at a low point I'd never imagined before in my life even though I'd had plenty of experience with anxiety and depression.  When I started to have intrusive morbid thoughts I couldn't control, I knew I had to do something, and "distraction" is what came to me.  I don't mean the kind of distraction that one only does "if they feel like it."  I somehow knew I HAD to do this, and to keep doing it until I got through the acute stage. So, I distracted myself relentlessly and obsessively, using whatever worked in the moment and then switching to something else as soon as the previous thing stopped working.  I used my very obsessiveness to do this. It was a stream of consciousness thing where I made use of whatever popped into my head (there was no preplanning of what to do next).  I distracted myself this way over and over until it became a habit.  It was my main "job" every day, and it was serious business.  Interestingly, it wasn't long before I actually started looking forward to my favorite distractions!  I kept doing this for many months, and in time my symptoms began to fall away one by one.  It was a long process, one day at a time, and there was no knowing how things would eventually turn out.  But I just kept on doing this, moment by moment, day by day, and eventually at about 20 months off I healed.

 

[[An...]]

Hi Luigi, so sorry to hear you're going through this.  As mentioned, yes, intrusive thoughts are a very common withdrawal symptom. I myself feel like there's a whole other consciousness living in the same body, which fires off depressive and worrisome thoughts at random like a heckler.  It really is hard to fight, because how do you fight "yourself"?  It's gotten weird enough that I'm hearing things - auditory hallucinations - on a regular basis, at least twice a week.

 

I'm also working on the assurance of others that it will go away.  Some days, the voices will leave me alone; others, they'll shout at full volume.  But they're getting softer and more faint, week by week.

[[Si...]]

its a really common symptom of benzos and ive heard it so any times. ive had some weird thoughts but its important to recognize what they are and don't let it disturb you as best as you can.

[[kd...]]

Our brain has to heal, when I was in acute I had crazy thoughts that I never had before, by two months that sxs was gone....sadly all very normal.....it will pass....distraction distractions...this will help.

[Guest [Lu...]]

Thanks Guys. I really appreciate it  :smitten: :smitten:

[[Te...]]

I still get this, and it drives me crazy, especially the thoughts about health and death. The one sure way of distracting myself is to get out and walk, and walk, and walk. That is, if you can do it. I couldn't do much of it for over a year. But now that I can, it's one of my best forms of distraction. At night I watch a lot of TV, which is a wasteland, but it helps.