Don't Think I'll Get Better

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I'm at a point where I wonder if I'll ever really get better. I'm tired of being sick, tired of feeling this way. I don't know how some people put up with this for two years. Discouraging.

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Question here. How could you have dropped .5 mg a day for four months?

[Guest [Bi...]]

Question here. How could you have dropped .5 mg a day for four months?

I read the sig as "reduced to .5 a day (from the previous 1mg/day) and held for four months" rather than dropped .5 every day for four months

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Bets,

 

My dosing was like Billy said. I'm not really sure what your question has to do with my post. I feel like I'm being interrogated by you. I'm not sure why. Are you questioning my credibility? Kind of harsh considering that I'm having a tough time in withdrawal.

[[Kn...]]

I'm sorry you are having a tough time with your withdrawal, but it'll make you stronger when you are done!  It does get better!

 

You are at ~1.5mg of valium, 7.5mg of remeron and 300 mg gabapentin? 

 

Why did they add more drugs?  Gabapentin seems counter productive to getting off of GABA drugs... I'd say drop the gabapentin first,  then if you want to go slow do 1.5mg valium, 1mg of valium, .5mg valium, 0 over a few weeks.  Then, finally, get rid of the Remeron. 

 

Remeron made me MORE depressed, when I took it.  It also made me very emotional.  I'm sure it helps some people, but, I thought I'd throw that out there as a possibility.

 

Good luck!

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KnoThatFeel, that's a good question....I was told by the doctor that Neurontin is supposed to help with withdrawals. He told me it's what they give you in rehab to safely detox off benzos. I was given Remeron for sleep. It was supposed to help the healing process (I think). I've been cutting down my dose because of feedback from BenzoBuddies (not by much though, from 15 to 7.5). I didn't know Remeron could cause further depression, emotionality.

 

Also...I'm trying to cut as slowly as possible because when I tried to cut by 20% it was horrifying.

 

 

[Guest [Bi...]]

I'm at a point where I wonder if I'll ever really get better. I'm tired of being sick, tired of feeling this way. I don't know how some people put up with this for two years. Discouraging.

 

The strength of people who put up with massive symptoms for years is impressive. I can't imagine.

I know that the feeling of it never ending is a classic benzo withdrawal sx. I know it doesn't help much right now to read that but if you can somehow internalize that as truth it may help.

So sorry you're going through it, Cheeker. Sucks like nothing else to feel like that and to KNOW that there is no is absolutely no immediate fix, just f-ing time. time time time.

 

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Oh Cheeker,

 

I can completely understand your strife. It has been 3 yrs for me of this hell. First tol wd and now a yr of taper wd. I am down to my last 5 cuts so it's so close to the end of the taper, just like you, but I am really struggling to hold it together. Every moment is complete torture. I thought I would have gotten relief by now but sadly it has gotten worse. Everyday I am really absolutely surprised I survived another day. I am sure you feel the same. It's the most miserable existence. I doubt at this moment that I will ever feel better. That I am broken and stuck in this hell forever. So I totally get it.

 

G

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Poor Grinch. I'm so sorry. You'll get through it. We all will.

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Poor Grinch. I'm so sorry. You'll get through it. We all will.

 

We have to hold on to every ounce of will power. Especially now at the very end. Cheeker, you are almost there. Just like me. Somehow we will get there. Hang on buddy, hang on.

 

G

[[Ki...]]

Im right there with you guys, down to the bitter end. I thought things would be looking up by now - Ive been tapering for 15 months - but I feel like Im getting worse. Got some sort of stomach thing now, dont know if its withdrawal, but Ive had the most UNGODLY shooting, stabbing, cramping pains, with trouble swallowing and a lump in my throat. I havent eaten for two days. Im hoping its a virus that will pass. Anyway, I TOTALLY feel your hopelessness and frustration. Nothing we can do but have faith in the process.

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All,

 

It really heartened me to read your encouraging each other. It's going to be many cheers going up when each and every one of you jumps. You've come this far, and you know what Churchill said:  "If you find yourself going through hell, keep on going."  I think it was Churchill.

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All,

 

It really heartened me to read your encouraging each other. It's going to be many cheers going up when each and every one of you jumps. You've come this far, and you know what Churchill said:  "If you find yourself going through hell, keep on going."  I think it was Churchill.

 

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I believe you have a hard time. I hope you are getting better. 

 

My mind is nothing but sadness, it feels like random negative thoughts keep entering my head from nowhere.

I dont believe I can keep it up. This is my first cut and I dont know what will I face for the next one. Hopefully it is just a matter of time. 

 

[[Je...]]

You haven't been on for a tremendously long time,  perhaps you will withdraw relatively easily...