Were you okay before the benzos?

[[Je...]]

What I mean is:

 

- Did your parents raise you okay?  Were they supportive, loving etc?

 

- Were in in a career you liked?  A school you liked taking classes you liked?

 

- Did you have a love in your life?  A person who was good to live with?

 

- Were you financially sound?  Not finding it hard to get food or shelter or pay bills etc?

 

- How was your physical health?

 

- How was your mental health?

 

Did benzos affect any of those things?  Which ones?

[Guest [Ti...]]

- Did your parents raise you okay?  Were they supportive, loving etc?

Nope abusive as hell

 

- Were in in a career you liked?  A school you liked taking classes you liked?

Loved my career

 

- Did you have a love in your life?  A person who was good to live with?

Yep was engaged for 6 years

 

- Were you financially sound?  Not finding it hard to get food or shelter or pay bills etc?

Yep was making $5k a month no debt at all, went on vacation 3 times a year was living the life

 

- How was your physical health?

Perfect always was

 

- How was your mental health?

Perfect

 

Did benzos affect any of those things?  Which ones?

They robbed me of everything except my abusive Mother

[[al...]]

I took benzos  for sleep, otherwise I was in great shape. Never suffered from anxiety, depression or any type of mental illness. I had a great career that I loved (and will go back to when this is over). I had my health, financial security, life was good. Then I decided I needed to come off this drug and thats when things went sideways. Fuck benzo withdrawal.

[[Mo...]]

I took benzos  for sleep, otherwise I was in great shape. Never suffered from anxiety, depression or any type of mental illness. I had a great career that I loved (and will go back to when this is over). I had my health, financial security, life was good. Then I decided I needed to come off this drug and thats when things went sideways. Fuck benzo withdrawal.

 

Ditto, i took it for insomnia due to irregular night-duties  at the airport,

worked well for years till........the rest is history.

[[Je...]]

Man I can't imagine how mad I would be if I were prescribed benzos just for sleep and ended up having to do this long taper

withdrawal thing. 

 

 

[[Si...]]

I was put on benzos right after my 16th birthday. I had a moderate depressive episode due to problems at home (possibly worsened by Ciprobay use), otherwise my mental and physical health were excellent, as far as I can remember. Did benzos affect any of it? Sure. I'm spending my time on BB, that's a telltale sign.

[[sc...]]

I had a child hood that I got everything I wanted but no one to spend time with me, put on many anti depressents starting at 18, got pregnant at 19,,lost bf, still was fine, went through pregnancy pretty much alone had a good job,,after daughter born more anti depressents mind you I hardly ever filled them..I was always moody,,went back to school graduated with honors, got cna certificate,,got really good job at the bank spending money like nothing, met man got husband, anusive tried to keep me stuck in the house,,got pregnant again I was very happy,,had another little girl got sick not from benzos,,severely depressed diagnosed as bi polar,,don't think so,,went to psychiatric program gave me Gabapentin, Seroquel and lithium at first,,decided lamictal was better,,came home was like a zombie quit the Seroquel and gabapentin went to pdoc prescribed diazepam for sleep when previously ambien worked fine,,took it duh uninformed but haven't had any noticible problems from diazepam,,want it off because found bb and scared the shit out of me.

[[Bi...]]

I took benzos  for sleep, otherwise I was in great shape. Never suffered from anxiety, depression or any type of mental illness. I had a great career that I loved (and will go back to when this is over). I had my health, financial security, life was good. Then I decided I needed to come off this drug and thats when things went sideways. Fuck benzo withdrawal.

 

Me too.  Normal and happy person with a bad case of insomnia and some nightmares (I refused to take my BP medication and that's all I really needed, dumb me! I thought BP meds were bad, HA!)  To be honest I did have a panic attack problem for the last 35 years before that term even existed.  At the time I started benzo's in 2007 I only had 2 or 3 panic attacks a year so it was getting better.  The cost to benefit ratio of this drug was just not worth it! 

 

Benzo's win's the 'birdman' prize for being "The World's Worst Drug"!  (and the world's most addictive too)

[[lo...]]

What I mean is:

 

- Did your parents raise you okay?  Were they supportive, loving etc?

yes

 

- Were in in a career you liked?  A school you liked taking classes you liked?

no, at teacher training college, hated it!!

 

- Did you have a love in your life?  A person who was good to live with?

no, only 20

 

- Were you financially sound?  Not finding it hard to get food or shelter or pay bills etc?

with parents

 

- How was your physical health?

ok

 

- How was your mental health?

a bit depressed

 

Did benzos affect any of those things?  Which ones?

 

Benzos made me very depressed and very suicidal.

 

Took a toll on my physical and mental health for 40 years. Prescribed for epilepsy.

 

Out of labour market / life in general for 10 years

[[Je...]]

You're signature is beautiful, LF. 

[[Fi...]]

I was good.  Beautiful life.  I just want it back!

[[ba...]]

i never really had any anxiety problems until i became ill in early 2012 i waited a month to see a dr i quit drinking when i was an alcoholic for 5 years before my dr prescribed alprazolam to be since i had a convulsion from a bad hangover ,in 2011 i lost my evening job i was working 2 jobs i was happys with keeping busy so i worked in the morning - early afternoon i was binge drinking 3-4 times a week . somtimes i think "maybe if i hadnt lost my 2nd job  or if i got a new 2nd job in the evening , i wouldve never needed xanax

[[xe...]]

- Did your parents raise you okay?  Were they supportive, loving etc?

yes.

- Were in in a career you liked?  A school you liked taking classes you liked?

yes.

- Did you have a love in your life?  A person who was good to live with?

no.

- Were you financially sound?  Not finding it hard to get food or shelter or pay bills etc?

yes.

- How was your physical health?

good.

- How was your mental health?

severe anxiety

Did benzos affect any of those things?  Which ones?

 

Being on benzos caused me some memory problems, but otherwise I was more or less stable on them. Going off of them obviously gave me significant physical and mental symptoms. However, the net result of forcing myself to tolerate withdrawal has been that I learned a lot of coping skills around anxiety which I never had before. So, overall, despite some lingering issues I'd have to say that life after benzos makes a lot more sense than life before benzos did.

[[Je...]]

"Being on benzos caused me some memory problems, but otherwise I was more or less stable on them. Going off of them obviously gave me significant physical and mental symptoms. However, the net result of forcing myself to tolerate withdrawal has been that I learned a lot of coping skills around anxiety which I never had before. So, overall, despite some lingering issues I'd have to say that life after benzos makes a lot more sense than life before benzos did."

 

I could have posted that very thing.  All of it.  I'd only add that life prior to benzos was on-again off-again terrible due to old issues unresolved.

 

But, yes, the tapering/withdrawal journey is giving me wisdom about myself. 

[[Cl...]]

My life was wonderful before benzos, then a tragedy, then bad doctors that prescribed me Rivotril...such a long time on benzos that I developed a horrible tolerance withdrawaual before knowing it...

I am sure my life is going to be beautiful again once this withdrawal is over...

I am also working hard on my taper for me to be as functional as possible and, if I can manage, as happy as possible.

I Know I may sound nuts to you, I know I have had...and possibly will have...very black periods, but I do like life, my old parents and dogs need me, I need to work for living, I only have myself to look after me, I like my job, I like my life, I will certainly like being myself again.

[[Co...]]

Another here for insomnia due to back pain. Otherwise had good everything else.

[[Fi...]]

Really, Cool?  "Otherwise had good everything else?"  This doesn't quite jibe with the stories you're telling about your marriages.  Have you considered a counsellor to help you sort things out?

[[Mo...]]

Really, Cool?  "Otherwise had good everything else?"  This doesn't quite jibe with the stories you're telling about your marriages.  Have you considered a counsellor to help you sort things out?

 

Whats your problem FJ ? your nitpicking and personal remarks are pathetic...

knock it off please....... 

 

Have you considered a counsellor to teach you manners, charme ....not to embarrass Folks ? 

[[Fi...]]

Not sure why you seem to have it in for me Morreweg, but I'm a person who tries to learns from what's gone before and doesn't keep doing the same thing expecting a different outcome, so I'll be making a point to avoid any threads where you're engaging.

[Guest [Lu...]]

- Did your parents raise you okay?  Were they supportive, loving etc?

 

Yep.

 

- Were in in a career you liked?  A school you liked taking classes you liked?

 

Yep.

 

- Did you have a love in your life?  A person who was good to live with?

 

Nope.

 

- Were you financially sound?  Not finding it hard to get food or shelter or pay bills etc?

 

Yep.

 

- How was your physical health?

 

Good.

 

- How was your mental health?

 

Excellent.

 

 

 

Thanks Big Pharma! 

[[Mo...]]

Not sure why you seem to have it in for me Morreweg, but I'm a person who tries to learns from what's gone before and doesn't keep doing the same thing expecting a different outcome, so I'll be making a point to avoid any threads where you're engaging.

 

i don't have it in for anybody.....but you seem to have it in for some members, its not the

first time......you are doing this kind of thing.... and yes, it pisses me of when someone

upsets people.....no matter what their intention are, because it's not nice !

 

 

[[me...]]

What I mean is:

 

- Did your parents raise you okay?  Were they supportive, loving etc?

 

They were OK.  Better than some.

 

- Were in in a career you liked?  A school you liked taking classes you liked?

 

Yes.  Great public schools (San Francisco, a long time ago), academic HS, Art School, etc.  Became self-supporting painter by age 23

 

- Did you have a love in your life?  A person who was good to live with?

 

Married late but yes.

 

- Were you financially sound?  Not finding it hard to get food or shelter or pay bills etc?

 

Yes

 

- How was your physical health?

 

Excellent

 

- How was your mental health?

 

OK but always had shyness and anxiety issues

 

Did benzos affect any of those things?  Which ones?

 

I started benzos at age 49, so not really, except that Xanax did help me through a very difficult time (widowhood)

[[Je...]]

Really, Cool?  "Otherwise had good everything else?"  This doesn't quite jibe with the stories you're telling about your marriages.  Have you considered a counsellor to help you sort things out?

 

Maybe if you PM the member you're concerned about they'll put up with your personal attack sort of queries. 

 

Maybe not. 

[[Fi...]]

Excuse me?  I'm in trouble for faithfully following Cool's story?  Suggesting a counsellor is an attack?  Since going to a counsellor on my own is what helped save my own marriage, I thought it was solid advice.  If posts must always be "hang in there, you're right and the rest of the world is treating you cruelly," what's the point of having individuals following people's stories and making suggestions specific to them?

 

I'm still trying to heal too, you know.  Being sniped at on here isn't the best RX for me either.

[[Je...]]

Excuse me?  I'm in trouble for faithfully following Cool's story?  Suggesting a counsellor is an attack?  Since going to a counsellor on my own is what helped save my own marriage, I thought it was solid advice.  If posts must always be "hang in there, you're right and the rest of the world is treating you cruelly," what's the point of having individuals following people's stories and making suggestions specific to them?

 

I'm still trying to heal too, you know.  Being sniped at on here isn't the best RX for me either.

 

That's a pretty good response there.  I've used that sort of response myself after I've over reacted to somebody.  It's good if you

want to portray yourself as completely innocent of any wrong doing. 

 

I may give it up, though.  It seems to be used by a lot of people and that takes the fun out of it.