Reading my old posts, but can't remember writing them

[[Cr...]]

Along with all the horrible physical things I'm having at 7 months, extreme dizziness, flashing vision, tremors shakes and crazy neurological attacks. My memory is getting worse, every day I get dumber and more disconnected from who I am, I'm walking around in a cloud and I'm so weak and brittle. I cry constantly and have trouble completing even simple tasks. I'm beginning to have trouble walking. I'm coming up on 7 months off, I'm only 30 years old, and just a couple months ago I was running miles and lifting weights. Whats happening to be, I'm falling apart so badly, worse than I have ever felt and it's not letting up. I need help. I can't go on like this.

[[Ch...]]

I'm so sorry, this is a tough time of year for many people...I looked at your signature and you've started two meds  in the last month.  Could that be affecting you badly, do you think?

Challis

[[Co...]]

Hey cp you're not alone. I wish I could tell u what's happening with you but I can't even help myself. I'm still worse than I ever have been at almost 16 months out. I just can't believe it. Are we getting worse or is this part of the healing? I just don't know. I saw some of my old posts from the earlier days and I seemed fine compared to hiw I'm doing now.

[[Cr...]]

I just don't know anymore, I don't even feel real. I'm so hazy and fuzzy and my memory is all messed up, I feel like I'm on acid half the day and the rest of the time I'm twitching burning and having all kinds of nerve pain. I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like I'm losing the battle and its consuming whats left of me. I have no fight left. I'm so tired. I just want it to end.

[[...]]

I just don't know anymore, I don't even feel real. I'm so hazy and fuzzy and my memory is all messed up, I feel like I'm on acid half the day and the rest of the time I'm twitching burning and having all kinds of nerve pain. I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like I'm losing the battle and its consuming whats left of me. I have no fight left. I'm so tired. I just want it to end.

 

believe me, I'm living like this for a year and a half now....no nerve pain....

i don't believe anymore i will be so blessed and get even one window,,,,,

 

do you have people to be there for you??

 

take care,,,,

eva

[[lo...]]

Hi Crazypants

 

Hope it will get better soon for you.  7 months is not long although it can seem like forever when suffering so much.

 

I certainly got worse before I started to feel better. This often happens.

 

I don't think your age matters. There are so many young people suffering here.

 

Just hang on and see if you turn a corner.

 

I don't know whether the meds you are taking may be having an effect, good or bad.

 

LF 

 

 

[[Lo...]]

hey man.....i just want to start off by saying you will get better.  i felt like you at that 6 month period. just take it as easy as you can.  know it is just withdrawal and it will soon change for the better.  just give it more time.  i wanted to kill myself everyday. at almost a year i feel so much better. i have never felt this good in my life.  these drugs are so fucking hard to get off of but if you set your mind to it and make it your world to get off this shit you will make it. just trust time.  you can do it man.  you will see a difference. keep it going.