I think I'm finally starting to understand the concept of waves and windows...

[[An...]]

I am most definitely in a wave right now. Is it normal to not realize you were in a window until you're back in a wave? My symptoms have gone nuts over the last week. Crazy intrusive thoights, constant feelings of guilt, fear of fainting all the time, horrible anxiety and depression. You name it. I didn't realize that I was feeling so much better until I started feeling so bad again. How am I just now noticing windows and waves at around 18 months out? Has anyone else had something similar? Has anyone had a positive experience witb this type of situation? I am so frustrated that I'm feeling so bad around Christmas time. need some encouragement...

[[Fi...]]

I'm having a hard time picturing how this has gone for you in the past 18 months.  Did you feel you were just crummy all the time?  Feel like you were slowly but steadily improving?  My ups and downs have been so dramatic, to be honest, I can't relate to not noticing the concept of windows and waves   Sorry you're having a hard time right now.