6 months out, a mixed bag of sx's

[Guest [Mo...]]

I no longer have really clear windows, but overall I'm not doing too bad except for one thing......stinking muscle cramps!   Now in my spine, where i had a fusion, two places, upper back and lower back.  Keep almost throwing my low back out and these horrid cramps are much worse than the muscle spasms I gpt occasionally before benzos.  It's like it's settled in and isn't going away.  It's gotten worse over the last couple months, and I can't do anything hardly because of it.

 

How long before this eases up?  sheesh!  If it gets worse I'll end up in bed.  I'm taking flexeril, and getting a half hour massage a week, nothing seems to faze these spinal/muscular cramps.

 

I still have akathesia, and occasional cramps in legs.  Nerve pain is really bad some days, other not so much.  I printed out a list of sx's from the Ashton manual so I could black out ones I never had, ones that were better, etc.  Most of my brain sx's are gone.  If not for physical ones, I would be healed right now.  I would like to have acupuncture done on spine but not one near me.

 

I was hoping my 6 months would be a big celebration, but not so much. 

 

MG

[[ja...]]

I was hoping my 6 months would be a big celebration, but not so much. 

 

Do not worry, it will certainly always better 

[[Mo...]]

I was hoping my 6 months would be a big celebration, but not so much. 

 

MG, most important thing is you are 6 months off this crap, which is a big achievement.

way to go....let the healing continue.

[[Li...]]

Mountain girl..... great about being off 6 months!!    I pray your muscle spasms and twitches go away soon... hang in there!! 

 

Lilly555

 

[[Ja...]]

Mg, we both have a history of lots of nasty joint issues, I'm about 7 months off and too notice nasty muscular issues where I've had low back surgery, and in my neck that was just fused too. I think we will get better, hang in there. Btw,flexiril way revved me up and quit helping the spasms after a week or so.

[Guest [Mo...]]

Mg, we both have a history of lots of nasty joint issues, I'm about 7 months off and too notice nasty muscular issues where I've had low back surgery, and in my neck that was just fused too. I think we will get better, hang in there. Btw,flexiril way revved me up and quit helping the spasms after a week or so.

 

Jack over 30 yrs of spine pain they are the only muscle relaxer that ever helped me, and I tried them all.  They also help me sleep.  Only downside is they make me sweat and keep an extra 15lbs on.    I pray this spine stuff goes away, my spine feels like it will snap.    I started stretching again yesterday, was a bit better this morning, but hurting again tonight after stretching.  Hope you are healing up well from neck fusion.  My neck is tight and spasms, but the L4-S1 is killer for me right now.

 

Hugs, MG

[Guest [Mo...]]

Mountain girl..... great about being off 6 months!!    I pray your muscle spasms and twitches go away soon... hang in there!! 

 

Lilly555

 

Lily, thx sis  I'm a bit better than I was, just was so jazzed my 6 month was here, and I was hurting so bad........but then I lost my doggie the week before and was ramped up from that.  Gentle hug & love,  Hope you are doing well sweets.

 

MG

[Guest [Mo...]]

I was hoping my 6 months would be a big celebration, but not so much. 

 

MG, most important thing is you are 6 months off this crap, which is a big achievement.

way to go....let the healing continue.

 

 

 

Morreweg, you are right sis!  I was just in a lot of pain and flaring, probably from my pup dying.  It's such a downer to hit the big 6 months and be hurting so bad, was praying for a window.  It hasn't killed me yet and I've been through a whole lot the last 2 yrs, and am definitely doing better, things like I can actually eat, and my hair grew back! 

 

Pray you are feeling better everyday, hugs

MG

[Guest [Mo...]]

I was hoping my 6 months would be a big celebration, but not so much. 

 

Do not worry, it will certainly always better 

 

thx Jabba 

 

[[Li...]]

Lily, thx sis  I'm a bit better than I was, just was so jazzed my 6 month was here, and I was hurting so bad........but then I lost my doggie the week before and was ramped up from that.  Gentle hug & love,  Hope you are doing well sweets.

 

MG

 

 

I'm sorry MG, I didn't see this until now.    I'm so sorry you lost your best friend and beloved pet..   that was a lot of stress for you and anxiety, so no wonder it threw you into more intense suffering.  I pray you are feeling better as we're getting close to Christmas.  I guess it's gonna take as long as it's gonna take to heal from this poison.  I hope you have lots of distractions.  I started to crochet again after many years of not doing it.  I find it relaxes me.. that is when I'm not so bad and can concentrate.

 

Praying for you, and sorry I didn't see this till now.. 

 

Lilly555 

[Guest [Mo...]]

Lily, thx sis  I'm a bit better than I was, just was so jazzed my 6 month was here, and I was hurting so bad........but then I lost my doggie the week before and was ramped up from that.  Gentle hug & love,  Hope you are doing well sweets.

 

MG

 

 

I'm sorry MG, I didn't see this until now.    I'm so sorry you lost your best friend and beloved pet..   that was a lot of stress for you and anxiety, so no wonder it threw you into more intense suffering.  I pray you are feeling better as we're getting close to Christmas.  I guess it's gonna take as long as it's gonna take to heal from this poison.  I hope you have lots of distractions.  I started to crochet again after many years of not doing it.  I find it relaxes me.. that is when I'm not so bad and can concentrate.

 

Praying for you, and sorry I didn't see this till now.. 

 

Lilly555 

 

 

 

Lily, you didn't miss it, I didn't post until this evening.  How I lost my fuzzy girl was traumatic.  The vet jabbed her over and over again, and her little leg was bleeding profusely, I was so traumatized  :'(  He said "this will be over quick" and just stopped her heart without giving her a relaxer first.  I didn't sleep that nite, it put me back into acute.   When my boy was put to sleep last year the vet gave him a sleepy shot first.  I was so shocked by the lack of compassion.  When I feel better I'm going to write him a letter, it's still traumatic.  She was a puppy mill dog and deserved a peaceful death.  I wrote about it on the thread for other stuff, there's also pics of her there.  She was a little doll, breaks my heart.

 

Thx for your prayers & compassion, and back at you my sweet sister. 

 

MG

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Mountaingirl, I am so sorry about your puppy.  So hard to deal with without Benzo W/D.  I wish you the strength to cope. 

 

Also sorry for your back pain.  I hope it gets better soon. 

[Guest [Mo...]]

Mountaingirl, I am so sorry about your puppy.  So hard to deal with without Benzo W/D.  I wish you the strength to cope. 

 

Also sorry for your back pain.  I hope it gets better soon.

 

Jth, thank you 

[[Li...]]

Lily, you didn't miss it, I didn't post until this evening.  How I lost my fuzzy girl was traumatic.  The vet jabbed her over and over again, and her little leg was bleeding profusely, I was so traumatized  :'(  He said "this will be over quick" and just stopped her heart without giving her a relaxer first.  I didn't sleep that nite, it put me back into acute.   When my boy was put to sleep last year the vet gave him a sleepy shot first.  I was so shocked by the lack of compassion.  When I feel better I'm going to write him a letter, it's still traumatic.  She was a puppy mill dog and deserved a peaceful death.  I wrote about it on the thread for other stuff, there's also pics of her there.  She was a little doll, breaks my heart.

 

Thx for your prayers & compassion, and back at you my sweet sister. 

 

MG

 

That must have been horrible!  Vets need to give you a written protocol of the entire procedure so you can read it and ask questions.  It's good that you are sending a letter expressing your anguish over it all.  Perhaps then they will be more humane and compassionate to beloved pet and owner. 

 

Again, I'm so sorry for your loss MG...

 

Lilly555. 

[Guest [Mo...]]

Lily, you didn't miss it, I didn't post until this evening.  How I lost my fuzzy girl was traumatic.  The vet jabbed her over and over again, and her little leg was bleeding profusely, I was so traumatized  :'(  He said "this will be over quick" and just stopped her heart without giving her a relaxer first.  I didn't sleep that nite, it put me back into acute.   When my boy was put to sleep last year the vet gave him a sleepy shot first.  I was so shocked by the lack of compassion.  When I feel better I'm going to write him a letter, it's still traumatic.  She was a puppy mill dog and deserved a peaceful death.  I wrote about it on the thread for other stuff, there's also pics of her there.  She was a little doll, breaks my heart.

 

Thx for your prayers & compassion, and back at you my sweet sister. 

 

MG

 

That must have been horrible!  Vets need to give you a written protocol of the entire procedure so you can read it and ask questions.  It's good that you are sending a letter expressing your anguish over it all.  Perhaps then they will be more humane and compassionate to beloved pet and owner. 

 

Again, I'm so sorry for your loss MG...

 

Lilly555. 

 

 

Lily, that's what my hubs said too, and I agree.  He should have been the one to hold her, she never lost fear, even us holding her she would stress.  Being blind and crippled made it worse.  My poor girl  :'(

 

Hugs, MG

[[Gr...]]

Hi MG,

      SO sorry to read about all that you're going through.

I thought about you on our 6month anniversary.

I made it to AZ to see my son graduate from grad school. One proud Mom ! ! !

Still have some issues, sure it's all withdrawal of one kind or another. Started a slow withdrawal from Paxil finally !

Hugs to you for having made it this far !    Compared to a year ago things are so much better.........RIGHT XX

[Guest [Mo...]]

Hi MG,

      SO sorry to read about all that you're going through.

I thought about you on our 6month anniversary.

I made it to AZ to see my son graduate from grad school. One proud Mom ! ! !

Still have some issues, sure it's all withdrawal of one kind or another. Started a slow withdrawal from Paxil finally !

Hugs to you for having made it this far !    Compared to a year ago things are so much better.........RIGHT XX

 

Gray, lucky you in AZ!  I'm a westerner stuck in the east, lol.  So happy you are tapering off Paxil!  I can't wait to be done with clonidine, flexeril & hydroxine.  Had hoped to be off them already, but it will be soon!  Congrats to your son!  My stepdaughter just finished her Masters.    We will beat this!

 

MG

[[Li...]]

MG.... I saw the pics of Blossom...So cute!  You have some lovely memories there. 

 

God bless!

 

Lilly555

[Guest [Mo...]]

MG.... I saw the pics of Blossom...So cute!  You have some lovely memories there. 

 

God bless!

 

Lilly555

 

 

Lily, thx sis!    Yes she was a doll, and the black Cairn was Dylan, my sweet boy who we put down last year, he had kidney failure come on fast.  That tore us up bad.  Lots of love, MG

[[Gr...]]

Hi MG,

        I'm actually in CA. Love AZ though.

 

Congrats to your step daughter it's a big achievement.

 

You are SO right we are going to beat this.

 

Hugs :hug: :hug: