Intrusive thoughts about death

[[ma...]]

The thing that has bothered me the most since going off klonopin has to be intrusive thoughts about death. I am diagnosed with OCD, I have dealt with intrusive thoughts since I was in 6th grade. They're really bad, violent thoughts too. But they never made me as scared for my life and the inevitability of death as these ones from withdrawal. I assume they're from withdrawal because of when they started and how different they are from usual...

 

Is this normal, something other people have gone through? Maybe it's just withdrawal messing with my pre-existing problems. I just want to know if I can expect it to stop. I'm nearly at three weeks and my headaches have subsided, my nausea is calming down, I just have head pressure and these thoughts of death.

[Guest [Or...]]

I think anything we had pre-benzos is amplified ten fold in withdrawals. But yeah, I've had intrusive thoughts about death. Its not very fun. Like most of my symptoms, they have passed. I find intrusive thoughts to be one of the things I can deal with easily. When you get one, immediately replace the thought. Takes a bit of work, but its doable.

[[be...]]

Unfortunately these are all too common symptoms of withdrawal especially when they were stopped too rapidly. As frightening as they are they are only temporary. It looks like you are still in the acute phase. Symptoms are their very worst during this time. Your signature says you may reinstate?

[[ma...]]

Unfortunately these are all too common symptoms of withdrawal especially when they were stopped too rapidly. As frightening as they are they are only temporary. It looks like you are still in the acute phase. Symptoms are their very worst during this time. Your signature says you may reinstate?

 

i was hoping the acute phase would just be the first week or two but I'm coming up on week three soon

 

Also, probably not reinstating. My doctor wanted me to, but I can't get in to see her and talk face to face until January. May as well just ride it out.

[[be...]]

My acute phase lasted about 4-5 weeks and it was pretty horrific to say the least. Anything enduring that anything seemed doable. By month three my symptoms became much more manageable as they were far more predictable. At one year out I can happily say I am healed. I think you made a good choice in not reinstating.

[[ma...]]

My acute phase lasted about 4-5 weeks and it was pretty horrific to say the least. Anything enduring that anything seemed doable. By month three my symptoms became much more manageable as they were far more predictable. At one year out I can happily say I am healed. I think you made a good choice in not reinstating.

A year sounds really quick for how much your signature says you were on, that's great you are healed. Yeah, reinstating will probably just draw it out even longer than it would be if I stick with cold turkey, which was what was troubling me. Though to be honest, the medication I'm still on has these unbearable akathisia side effects the klonopin was meant to help with, so part of me wishes I could reinstate.

[[Li...]]

The thing that has bothered me the most since going off klonopin has to be intrusive thoughts about death. I am diagnosed with OCD, I have dealt with intrusive thoughts since I was in 6th grade. They're really bad, violent thoughts too. But they never made me as scared for my life and the inevitability of death as these ones from withdrawal. I assume they're from withdrawal because of when they started and how different they are from usual...

 

Is this normal, something other people have gone through? Maybe it's just withdrawal messing with my pre-existing problems. I just want to know if I can expect it to stop. I'm nearly at three weeks and my headaches have subsided, my nausea is calming down, I just have head pressure and these thoughts of death.

 

In your signature you mention that you are taking Latuda also.  That's a powerful antipsychotic medication and I believe it's the newest one being pushed on the market.  Check out the side effects of Latuda and you can see if it matches what you are going through.

[[ma...]]

The thing that has bothered me the most since going off klonopin has to be intrusive thoughts about death. I am diagnosed with OCD, I have dealt with intrusive thoughts since I was in 6th grade. They're really bad, violent thoughts too. But they never made me as scared for my life and the inevitability of death as these ones from withdrawal. I assume they're from withdrawal because of when they started and how different they are from usual...

 

Is this normal, something other people have gone through? Maybe it's just withdrawal messing with my pre-existing problems. I just want to know if I can expect it to stop. I'm nearly at three weeks and my headaches have subsided, my nausea is calming down, I just have head pressure and these thoughts of death.

 

In your signature you mention that you are taking Latuda also.  That's a powerful antipsychotic medication and I believe it's the newest one being pushed on the market.  Check out the side effects of Latuda and you can see if it matches what you are going through.

 

I don't think it is the Latuda. Actually, I think the Latuda has gotten to the end of its rope in how much it affects my body. It doesn't calm me down or make me feel different mentally, not like it did in the beginning. All I have now is this akathisia to tell me its affecting anything. Anyway, the intrusive thoughts only started a few days after I went off the klonopin which is why I think it's a withdrawal side effect.

[Guest [Ti...]]

I've had thoughts about death from the time I wake up til the time I go to sleep since I got thrown on benzos. When I've CT'ed oh dear god.... I cant even tell you. I would've given anything to die at that point.

[[Ra...]]

The intrusive thoughts attacked me like an army of firing squads wielding machine guns early in withdrawal. Screw that I ain't going through that again. Hang in there a little bit longer and they'll calm down. They have for me.

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Another once of my worse symptoms! So so so bad! It was 24/7 and I mean 24/7!

It is NOTHING like it was even though I still have them. I've read that the thoughts just become less and less. That is what is happening to me.

I have them, but not like it was.

[[Co...]]

I had them bad in the beginning, again at 7 months and now again at 15 months and they are the worst ever.

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Yeah, mine got worse later in withdrawal and then eased up. So true that it is not linear. Just when you think you've healed from one things -back it comes or something else comes along and takes it's place.

I'm sure they loop and loop and loop, right? Just can't stop...it will go away. I read that it is the "thought component" with w/d, just like the physical sensation.  I've never seen anything like this before. We would have been better off on ANY other type of drug other than benzos. Might potentially be dead from any one of those drugs, but this type of withdrawal is unworldly...out of this world!

 

I'm struggling with a dark depression that I thought I was over at 5-6 months. I guess because I'm so tired, and have little hope that I've given up trying to be happy...I can't fake it anymore. Therapist, doctors, friends, clergy...noboby gets it. Thank god for Benzobuddies: a place where I can say, hey, I'm reallllly tired of this w/d and I want to give up, and have someone understand how difficult it is. Everyone was so supportive in the first few months...no it is a cruel joke. Sorry, I guess I'm not that encouraging. I'm just tired   Just tired, detached, and depressed.