Feeling Brain Damaged - Worried That My WD has destroyed my family!

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I'm starting to think I'm suffering from brain damage.  The old me is no where to be found.

 

My head throbs with pressure, my eyes sting and water.  I'm in a mental fog. I feel like I will never be the same.  My daughter, who I haven't seen in almost a year, was scheduled to fly in for Christmas, since I'm not myself I'm worried that her seeing me in this condition will traumatize her, and push her away.  She is aware I'm tapering,but has no clue the impact this has on me.  We used to go everywhere together and laugh. I worry my limitations will destroy our relationship.  Now, I can barely go outside to bring in the newspaper.

 

Feeling doomed and damaged mentally and physically.

 

Try

 

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You'll get there, Try. Hang in there.

Things change.

Not to worry about brain damage.

Just enjoy time with your daughter.

This is how it is, no faking it.

Maybe she will surprise you with her support.

Be easy on yourself.

Bennie.

 

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It will be ok Try. Sometimes our thoughts get the better of us during a wave. Once your daughter is with you, I'm sure you will feel her unconditional love and treasure the time together. 

 

Ruger

 

 

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Bennie and Ruger,

 

Thank you for the words of encouragement. 

 

I'm so different from who I used to be.  I love and adore my daughter, I'm so afraid to see her expression and looking at me with sadness and longing for her mother. 

 

My brain keeps telling me that I will never change.  My mind and body don't feel familiar at all.  And, it's so distressing I cant function.  So scared.

 

Try

 

 

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Try,

I do not mean this in any but the kindest way, but if your daughter is old enough to understand, she will learn compassion from this experience. If she is an adult, praise God that she wasn't younger when you went through this. Not to compare, but just to make it relative, I still have little ones and they are mystified by their Mom's terrors.

Just be loving. That is all you need to do.

xoxoxox

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Spiritus,

 

I understand what you are saying.  My daughter will be 18 in a couple weeks.  I've always prided myself on being a good example to my children.  And, for this to be happening is devastating.  I see my other family members pushing me away, because they don't understand.  I don't have siblings.  i don't want to lose her over this.

 

I've lost my husband, parents are elderly and really don't understand, lost my job.  Everything to this.  I couldn't bare losing her love.  It scares me tremendously.  I'm just so different.  I can't go anywhere, I dont watch tv.  My appearance has changed drastically. Last year I was a completely different person.  Laughing, couldn't keep me in the house.  Now I dont recognize myself.

 

And, you have little ones.  I can't imagine. 

 

Try

 

 

[[Be...]]

I too feel SEVERE brain damage to the point that I can not find the words I want to use to let you know you're not alone. I often tell my wife I literally feel like I'm on my way to looking like a permanent stroke patient. Everything is impossible. I took EVERYTHING in my SOUL today to get to doc appt so I can discuss switching back over to xanax. I feel doomed. Demonized! Insane!

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You'll get there, Try. Hang in there.

Things change.

Not to worry about brain damage.

Just enjoy time with your daughter.

This is how it is, no faking it.

Maybe she will surprise you with her support.

Be easy on yourself.

Bennie.

 

I think this is great advice for all of us: BE EASY ON YOURSELF. God loves you and time heals all things. xoxoxo

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Hi Try, I am also sure that when you see your daugther you are going to feel much better! You have no brain damage, you are going to be fine. Your daugther is going to be very proud of you when you speak to her About your journey. I think is a good idea to hold for more time. Enjoy your daugther a lot!!!

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Clona 21,

 

Thank you for your reply.  I appreciate your encouragement.   

 

All the Best,

Try

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To All,

 

Thank you for taking the time to reply.  Your support, and encouragement mean so much during this difficult journey.

 

Bless You All,

TRY

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Try:

 

I think you will be very surprised, in a good way, what you daughter feels for you. Remember, no matter what, you will always be her mom and she will always be your daughter. She will stand by you.