100 days benzo free!!!

[Guest [Or...]]

I wish this could be a success story, but instead its just a milestone post. Things have gotten better, and other things have gotten worse. My benzo symptoms are rather unique in that I never know what to expect day to day. Here are some improvements:

 

1) Haven't had a panic attack in nearly 2 months

2) Sleeping 7-9 hours a night.

3) I don't feel anxious anymore unless something major pops up.

4) I have accomplished good things despite the crippling agoraphobia. I visited a pdoc that acknowledged benzo withdrawal and even moved!

5) I have had some evenings where I feel 98-100%.

6) The breathing issues, until yesterday, had let up significantly. It was still a little labored, but nowhere near as bad as 2 weeks ago.

7) I no longer wake up in a panic or feel morning terror.

I may not be sensitive to stress??

 

Here is what I'm dealing with (Depends on the day):

 

Minor anxiety

Depression (Severe to mild)

DR

Minor ocd

Minimal fear

Heart palps/rapid heart racing

 

I've come a long way since I had to pace the old apartment for hours on end. But I feel like there is still much room for improvement. If the breathing issues would go away entirely and the DR wasn't intense, I could work on the agoraphobia.

 

I'm hoping the next 100 days are the road to healing. This is just getting a bit old and my withdrawal is really not that bad compared to others. There have been times I have seen the light at the end of the tunnel only to get blown further back in.

 

I'm hoping that my constant symptom swapping is a sign that I have the genetics to get over this quickly.

[Guest [Or...]]

Oh, and to any other users that cold turkeyed, I don't recommend it, but its doable. There were many times I thought I was dying and im still here. You will be too. I promise. Unless you were long term and on a high dose. Then you risk seizures. Can't guarantee you will survive that.

[[Lo...]]

I wish this could be a success story, but instead its just a milestone post. Things have gotten better, and other things have gotten worse. My benzo symptoms are rather unique in that I never know what to expect day to day. Here are some improvements:

 

1) Haven't had a panic attack in nearly 2 months

2) Sleeping 7-9 hours a night.

3) I don't feel anxious anymore unless something major pops up.

4) I have accomplished good things despite the crippling agoraphobia. I visited a pdoc that acknowledged benzo withdrawal and even moved!

5) I have had some evenings where I feel 98-100%.

6) The breathing issues, until yesterday, had let up significantly. It was still a little labored, but nowhere near as bad as 2 weeks ago.

7) I no longer wake up in a panic or feel morning terror.

I may not be sensitive to stress??

 

Here is what I'm dealing with (Depends on the day):

 

Minor anxiety

Depression (Severe to mild)

DR

Minor ocd

Minimal fear

Heart palps/rapid heart racing

 

I've come a long way since I had to pace the old apartment for hours on end. But I feel like there is still much room for improvement. If the breathing issues would go away entirely and the DR wasn't intense, I could work on the agoraphobia.

 

I'm hoping the next 100 days are the road to healing. This is just getting a bit old and my withdrawal is really not that bad compared to others. There have been times I have seen the light at the end of the tunnel only to get blown further back in.

 

I'm hoping that my constant symptom swapping is a sign that I have the genetics to get over this quickly.

 

Congrats on 100 days! Yay! Onward and upward. Praying for more rapid healing for you :-)

[Guest [Or...]]

Thanks LM. Me too. 100 days for barely 3 weeks use seems like a huge punishment. And they didn't even work really! Ugh!!!

[[Mo...]]

Congrats O, well done, wish this nightmare will come to an end

soon for you.

[Guest [Or...]]

Congrats O, well done, wish this nightmare will come to an end

soon for you.

 

Thanks Morroweg! Me too! I got stuff to do.

[[Ki...]]

Way to go Orion.....I've read a lot of yor posts, I like your no bullshit honesty and your positive spin on all this garbage. Yes, it's hard....but it's also doable.

 

I look forward to reading about your progress and recovery 

 

Thanks for keeping it real.

[Guest [Or...]]

Way to go Orion.....I've read a lot of yor posts, I like your no bullshit honesty and your positive spin on all this garbage. Yes, it's hard....but it's also doable.

 

I look forward to reading about your progress and recovery 

 

Thanks for keeping it real.

 

Aw thanks! That put a smile on my face. Keepin' it real was my IRL job before this shit. Gotta keep the spirit alive.

[[be...]]

Congrats.  You are 100 days closer to being healed. I am so happy to read that some things have gotten better. You will only continue to heal.

[[Li...]]

Wonderful Orion!!!    I pray you continue to heal!!

[[kd...]]

Way to go Orionbash, things will only get better from here.....love to you my friend....Diane

[Guest [Or...]]

Thanks! Doesn't feel like it today, but the past few days have been pretty good. So that's promising. The stronger the wave, the better the healing.

[[Th...]]

Fantastic!