Has anyone followed my pattern of healing?

[Guest [Or...]]

So, I'm still really confused as to where I am in withdrawal. A lot of everything has slowed down. Which surprises me because I moved a few days ago. I was under a ton of stress, and although I handled myself well, I thought for sure it would be a recipe for a disaster or a return of old symptoms. However, this hasn't been the case. I'm sensitive to stress. But it doesn't DO anything to me other than make me feel a little anxious. I don't get panic attacks anymore. And I only have a handful of symptoms left. But I'm only in month 4.

 

Today was my first day alone in my new house and I was SURE I'd get hit hard with a cortisol surge (and Mondays are always. Always my worst day). But here I am, feeling 95ish%. My only symptoms right now are very mild dr, very mild laboured breathing, and some weird feeling in my head I can only describe as feeling like my brain is fried and in retarded. Is this healing or just a window??

 

Like I don't get it lol.

[Guest [Or...]]

Oh and if this is a window, its lasted a looooong time. Like the night we moved I was doing good.

[[Th...]]

Don't question it just ENJOY lol

[[Be...]]

Don't question it just ENJOY lol

Ditto that!

[[ba...]]

Orion,

 

You are a short term user.  I'm surprised you are having any difficulty at all!  Enjoy your new found freedom and never look back! 

 

[[th...]]

Orion,

 

You are a short term user.  I'm surprised you are having any difficulty at all!  Enjoy your new found freedom and never look back! 

 

 

don't question it...move on and enjoy it!! Yay for you!!

 

G

[Guest [Or...]]

Haha, thanks guys! I am enjoying it. Really hope this is s corner. I can do 3 more months of thus if I heal at 6 months.

[[sa...]]

Glad you are on your way to healing.  Sorry if my other thread comments were abrasive or frustrating. 

[Guest [Or...]]

Glad you are on your way to healing.  Sorry if my other thread comments were abrasive or frustrating.

 

Satch, I'm harsh with you. I can take the criticism back. But what really, REALLY grinds my gears is hearing you say the same thing over and over and over again and when I give you advice you brush it off and ask for, "patience and understanding". You are suicidal!!! Go get help. Seriously. Stop posting on this forum and get the help of professionals. We are not professionals and cannot help you. I don't care if I get reported again for saying this. Suicide is not a joke. If you truly are actively suicidal and not just seeking attention, then GO!!!

 

And yes, I'm not on meds. That's not my choice. I WANT to be  on an SSRI and I would gladly do so for the rest of my life because I don't want to be housebound any longer or dealing with the anxiety from withdrawal. But I've had bad reactions to 2 SSRIs now. And Buspar did nothing for me.

 

I've invested a lot of time in reading your posts. I care, Satch. I talk to you like I would talk to my family or friends that needed, what I thought, was real advice. I hope you can see that.

[[sa...]]

Thanks Orion,

 

I almost went in last Tuesday but even my shrink said he didn't think it could really do much medically.  I do think I minimize it with him for fear of being locked up involuntarily.  The other doctor I have seen would put me on zyprexa which scares the hell out of me.

 

I really could use a month at a high end facility but that would run about 50k that I don't have and my insurance won't cover.

 

I hear your concern and appreciate it.  I know I bitch too much but often feel there is no relief for this suffering except more meds which scare the hell out of me.  Sorry you can' tolerate an SSRI.

 

Thanks again for not bailing on me until the next time I reference being trapped in psychiatry and suicidal.