Second guessing everything I do, does this paranoia ever go away?

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Since stopping the valium my self confidance has sunk to absolute zero, Everything I say or do sounds stupid to me a second after it leaves me mouth, i feel like everyone just thinks im stupid or have gone insane and theyre all talking about me behind my back. I havent felt paranoia like this since smoked marijuana a long time ago. Ive taken to spending pretty much every waking moment in isolation alone because I cant stand to be seen by anyone, or having to converse with people, even my own family. I look in their eyes and I can just see the cogs turning, thinking about how weird i am . I want to go back to having a life, going out for drinks, going to the gym, going to work but its impossible with how I am right now, I struggle even to go to the supermarket without running back to my car in a cold sweat . I hate it, its already been 15 months, when does it ever end.

 

Sorry for being such a debbie downer, just needed a place to vent.