I've had enough. At 5.5mg of V I'm jumping off.

[[Be...]]

I'm sick and tired of baby sitting the benzos. I'm done. I'm jumping off even if it kills me. Done! No more babysitting this Satan pill. Benzo free begins now! I'll be somewhat better by the New year. I don't believe real healing begins until you are truly clean. It will be hell but I don't care. Ill up my gabapentin to 2,000 for a month to help. Freeeee at last.

[[me...]]

I'm sick and tired of baby sitting the benzos. I'm done. I'm jumping off even if it kills me. Done! No more babysitting this Satan pill. Benzo free begins now! I'll be somewhat better by the New year. I don't believe real healing begins until you are truly clean. It will be hell but I don't care. Ill up my gabapentin to 2,000 for a month to help. Freeeee at last.

 

Hi,

 

I had to jump at about 5 mgs valium after a fast taper because my prescriptions had been stopped and I'd run out of valium.  I had absolutely horrendous symptoms for almost a year afterwards, and didn't fully heal until almost two years off. There's a link to my story below with all the details.

 

So, I strongly advise you to keep tapering for awhile longer. Jumping too soon can lead to extreme symptoms, and it also increases the danger of reinstatement/future kindling as well.  In 2009, three months after a hospital detox which produced unbearable symptoms, I reinstated and kindled-- and each reinstatement can lead to an even more difficult withdrawal the next time.

 

What you decide to do is up to you of course, but I'm sure I'm not the only one who will try to discourage you from doing this.

 

Megan

[[be...]]

I really understand how you feel. There are so many nights when I am in bed and I know I have to take my bedtime dose, and am sorely tempted to throw it in the trash. But going thru two horrific C/Ts, my mind turns to caution. In a few days I'll be down from 10 mg of K to just 1. I will continue to taper down to .03 mg. But I don't blame you. I bet the feeling of finally being benzo free will really help you with any w/d you might experience. It's like taking the key from a prison guard. I wish you all the best and I'm sure you will be able to handle any w/d you might face. Good luck to you BH.  Bets

[[Be...]]

I'm sick and tired of baby sitting the benzos. I'm done. I'm jumping off even if it kills me. Done! No more babysitting this Satan pill. Benzo free begins now! I'll be somewhat better by the New year. I don't believe real healing begins until you are truly clean. It will be hell but I don't care. Ill up my gabapentin to 2,000 for a month to help. Freeeee at last.

 

Hi,

 

I had to jump at about 5 mgs valium after a fast taper because my prescriptions had been stopped and I'd run out of valium.  I had absolutely horrendous symptoms for almost a year afterwards, and didn't fully heal until almost two years off. There's a link to my story below with all the details.

 

So, I strongly advise you to keep tapering for awhile longer. Jumping too soon can lead to extreme symptoms, and it also increases the danger of reinstatement/future kindling as well.  In 2009, three months after a hospital detox which produced unbearable symptoms, I reinstated and kindled-- and each reinstatement can lead to an even more difficult withdrawal the next time.

 

What you decide to do is up to you of course, but I'm sure I'm not the only one who will try to discourage you from doing this.

 

Megan

That is currently my life anyways. I'm in pure hell. I may as well be in pure hell and not take the poison anymore.

[[...]]

hello,

just sharing with you my experience.,,,

i also hate so much  to see my pills every day and i will still taper for another 2 months , I'm down to 0,125 mg klonopin,,,

i had a 2 ct....

and believe me ct are always burning alive in the fire.....

if you taper as close as possible to 0, it won't be such a unbearable hell.....it will be still hell, but not the HELL!!!!!!

 

please don't hurry, 5mg valium its not a small dosage....

 

take care :smitten:

 

 

[[Be...]]

hello,

just sharing with you my experience.,,,

i also hate so much  to see my pills every day and i will still taper for another 2 months , I'm down to 0,125 mg klonopin,,,

i had a 2 ct....

and believe me ct are always burning alive in the fire.....

if you taper as close as possible to 0, it won't be such a unbearable hell.....it will be still hell, but not the HELL!!!!!!

 

please don't hurry, 5mg valium its not a small dosage....

 

take care :smitten:

It's not small correct, but it's also only .25mg of xanax. I'm already in pure HELL!!

[[Be...]]

Maybe Ill be different than others. Maybe this is exactly what my Mind needs. I've never recovered since crossing over from xanax and I never will.

[[th...]]

Maybe Ill be different than others. Maybe this is exactly what my Mind needs. I've never recovered since crossing over from xanax and I never will.

 

Weigh all the options and do what you feel is right for yourself. Who knows things could improve. No one knows how anyone will respond to any kind of taper. Just be ready for any syx to pop up. Sometimes I think I would mentally feel better if I just up and quit bc I wouldn't have to take it 4x day anymore or worry about taking it in the middle of the night or take it with me if I leave the house or whatever!! The decision consistently looms over me bc I don't feel any better than I did back in Feb when I starred this journey! It's been pure hell...pure hell!! I just want off! So I get it...I really do!

 

G

[[Be...]]

Maybe Ill be different than others. Maybe this is exactly what my Mind needs. I've never recovered since crossing over from xanax and I never will.

 

Weigh all the options and do what you feel is right for yourself. Who knows things could improve. No one knows how anyone will respond to any kind of taper. Just be ready for any syx to pop up. Sometimes I think I would mentally feel better if I just up and quit bc I wouldn't have to take it 4x day anymore or worry about taking it in the middle of the night or take it with me if I leave the house or whatever!! The decision consistently looms over me bc I don't feel any better than I did back in Feb when I starred this journey! It's been pure hell...pure hell!! I just want off! So I get it...I really do!

 

G

EXACTLY!!!! Wither I'm strong enough to actually pull through with this C/T plan I'm not totally sure. I'm really really thinking strongly about it, but after reading what Megan said it kinda got me thinking. But what happened to her won't happen to everyone. I DINT KNOW ANYMORE GRINCH!! I FEEL LIKE I DIED AND WENT TO HELL FOR OVER TWO YEARS NOW.

[[Di...]]

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you all the best. 

[[Cl...]]

Hi Benzohell, please make sure you have someone next to you for the next following days. I really hope you do not feel that bad. Please keep us informed. 

[[Be...]]

Okay I'm not going to do it. I don't  have it in me to cold Turkey and like Megan said this could get a lot worse which is a scary thought so I began milk titration tonight. It looks like so..

 

Day 1 47ml.    5.47mg

Day 2 44ml.    5.44

Day 3 41ml.    5.41

                          5.38

                          5.35

                          5.32

                          5.29

                          5.26

                          5.23

                          5.20

                          5.17

                          5.14

                          5.11

                          5.08

                          5.05

                          5.02

So in 16 days I'll be at 5mg 

I didn't let it dissolve the best tonight, when I went to drink the milk it wasn't fully dissolved. So tomorrow I'm gonna crush pill first and then drop in the 50ML Of whole milk, let it settle evenly for 30min and then take out 6ml.

 

Bye bye cut and hold you're too dangerous in my experience.

 

[[Cl...]]

That is a GREAT plan!!! Congratulations!!!

[[Be...]]

That is a GREAT plan!!! Congratulations!!!

Thank you. You familiar with that kind of taper?

[[th...]]

Okay I'm not going to do it. I don't  have it in me to cold Turkey and like Megan said this could get a lot worse which is a scary thought so I began milk titration tonight. It looks like so..

 

Day 1 47ml.    5.47mg

Day 2 44ml.    5.44

Day 3 41ml.    5.41

                          5.38

                          5.35

                          5.32

                          5.29

                          5.26

                          5.23

                          5.20

                          5.17

                          5.14

                          5.11

                          5.08

                          5.05

                          5.02

So in 16 days I'll be at 5mg 

I didn't let it dissolve the best tonight, when I went to drink the milk it wasn't fully dissolved. So tomorrow I'm gonna crush pill first and then drop in the 50ML Of whole milk, let it settle evenly for 30min and then take out 6ml.

 

Bye bye cut and hold you're too dangerous in my experience.

 

[[Cl...]]

That is a GREAT plan!!! Congratulations!!!

Thank you. You familiar with that kind of taper?

 

Benzohell, I wish I were!!! Just check my signature...I started in a completely unsafe way. But after spending my evenings in this forum in order to learn from you all,  I can say that this plan of yours looks very clever to me!...I certainly do not recommend to do the cuts I Did before founding BBs!

You are almost done!!! Congratulations!!!

[[Be...]]

I have been doing cut n hold for a long time and it has been pure hell. So finally I gave in and decided that all of those doing the Milk Titration are living normal lives for the most part. So I'm jumping on board.

[[Cl...]]

Yes!

[[Be...]]

Yes!

Thanks for being there Clona. Everyday I don't have a clue how ill make it through but it's nice to know I have people here who relate and care. 95% of us I believe will never go through anything harder than this. We just gotta get through it even if it takes years.

[[Cl...]]

Hi BenzoHell, Yes, it is very hard what we are going through...we all in this forum are already warriors! I hope you are felling a bit better with your intelligent taper. Ir wish the best for you.

[[Be...]]

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you all the best. 

Thank you very much. I've decided to be smart and do Milk Titration. Slow and steady wins the race.

[[Ch...]]

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you all the best. 

Thank you very much. I've decided to be smart and do Milk Titration. Slow and steady wins the race.

 

Good to hear... 

[[Be...]]

Whatever you decide to do, I wish you all the best. 

Thank you very much. I've decided to be smart and do Milk Titration. Slow and steady wins the race.

 

Good to hear... 

Thank you Challis!