Advice Needed On Where To Go From Here.

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I will try to keep my story short.  I was put on valium 42 years ago for panic attacks.

I took 10 mg every day for 20 years,  sometimes took an extra 5mg when I felt really bad.

 

After 20 years a new GP made me taper down quickly from 10mg to 4mg which I still take.

I had 2 years of hell became completely housebound,  couldn't eat or sleep or be around people.

 

Fast forward 20 years to now, I am still taking 4mg of Diazepam daily,  I feel terrible.

I wake every morning with a sinking stomach wondering how I'm going to get through the day.

The depression is bad,  I can't relax or sleep properly.  I don't feel here most of the time.

I'm always afraid of everything.  I have no friends because of the social phobia. I'm scared to be left on my own.

 

My question is has anyone suffered same or similar to me ?  What do I do now ?

Do I updose,  do a slow taper or what ?    I can't stay like this but I'm so scared of becoming  housebound

again.

 

Advice please especially from long term users.

 

Wanna x

[Guest [Mi...]]

Hey, wannafeelwell. I was also a long time user (almost 30 years) on various benzos.

 

I'm really sorry you're suffering so much. You've probably hit tolerance on your current dose.

 

Do you have a taper plan set up yet? I went into tolerance while on 2 mg Klonopin, and it wasn't until I was about 3 months off that I started to improve. But I am feeling better now. 

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Hi mindseeker

Thanks for your reply.

I am going to start putting 1mg of diazepam into  1ml of milk starting today.

I will just start off by drinking the liquid for a week and see how I go,  if ok

I'm hoping to start titration then.

 

Still have doubts I'm doing the right thing. 

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Hi mindseeker

Thanks for your reply.

I am going to start putting 1mg of diazepam into  1ml of milk starting today.

I will just start off by drinking the liquid for a week and see how I go,  if ok

I'm hoping to start titration then.

 

Still have doubts I'm doing the right thing. 

 

I'm concerned that you're going from 4 mg all the way down to 1 mg. That may be too much of a cut.

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I won't be cutting from 4mg to 1mg..  I plan to take 2mg tablet in the morning

then cut my afternoon tablet in half,  take 1mg in tablet form and dissolve the other 1mg in milk.

I would then start cutting the titrated dose by tiny amounts everyday.

[Guest [Mi...]]

I won't be cutting from 4mg to 1mg..  I plan to take 2mg tablet in the morning

then cut my afternoon tablet in half,  take 1mg in tablet form and dissolve the other 1mg in milk.

I would then start cutting the titrated dose by tiny amounts everyday.

 

Thanks for the clarification. That sounds like a really good plan.