14 months out

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I usually post when I am feeling terrible. It is a great way to get some much needed support. Today, however I am actually doing ok. I realized earlier that I only post when I am in crisis mode. I then tried to think about the last time I posted. It was several months ago. I guess that means that I am actually healing. It is a very good feeling. There is hope out there people! For the first time in a very, very long time I think I actually see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am signing up for classes to get a bachelors in nursing and I am actually feeling hopeful about it. Before the idea of signing up for anything would have terrified me. Not so much today. I am still anxious and scared, but behind that there is some excitement and hope! I have been coping with stress much better. This amazes me because I am dealing with some pretty heavy things. All in all, things are about 60-70% better than they were 14 months ago. Keep your chins up. I know it seems hopeless. I know it is terrifying. Things will get better. Just breathe.

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Bad day for me. I needed your message. Thanks.

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Hang in there! I do not know how your experience has been, but mine was absolutely terrible for the first 10 months. Things slowly got better. Eventually I became less and less aware of my symptoms. I even had days where I didn't think about them at all. I still have some symptoms. I still have some pretty bad waves, but they do not last nearly as long as they use to. Before I use to have symptoms for weeks at a time. Now they rarely last longer than a day. Sometimes only a few hours. Relaxation is key. Try not to focus on them. I know it is hard to do that, but it really worked for me. Distract yourself. Buy a good book and dive right in. Binge watch a really good TV show on netflix. Just hunker down and wait. Time heals all wounds. You will be healed. It will happen eventually. Have hope!

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Hang in there! I do not know how your experience has been, but mine was absolutely terrible for the first 10 months. Things slowly got better. Eventually I became less and less aware of my symptoms. I even had days where I didn't think about them at all. I still have some symptoms. I still have some pretty bad waves, but they do not last nearly as long as they use to. Before I use to have symptoms for weeks at a time. Now they rarely last longer than a day. Sometimes only a few hours. Relaxation is key. Try not to focus on them. I know it is hard to do that, but it really worked for me. Distract yourself. Buy a good book and dive right in. Binge watch a really good TV show on netflix. Just hunker down and wait. Time heals all wounds. You will be healed. It will happen eventually. Have hope!

 

Thanks so much for coming back to post such a hopeful story.  I just finished month 10, and it's been hard.  so I was so glad to hear things got better for you after that.

 

The very best of luck with your nursing studies.

 

GreenIce

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I usually post when I am feeling terrible. It is a great way to get some much needed support. Today, however I am actually doing ok. I realized earlier that I only post when I am in crisis mode. I then tried to think about the last time I posted. It was several months ago. I guess that means that I am actually healing. It is a very good feeling. There is hope out there people! For the first time in a very, very long time I think I actually see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am signing up for classes to get a bachelors in nursing and I am actually feeling hopeful about it. Before the idea of signing up for anything would have terrified me. Not so much today. I am still anxious and scared, but behind that there is some excitement and hope! I have been coping with stress much better. This amazes me because I am dealing with some pretty heavy things. All in all, things are about 60-70% better than they were 14 months ago. Keep your chins up. I know it seems hopeless. I know it is terrifying. Things will get better. Just breathe.

 

Thanks so much for coming back and writing this message of hope for our members.  It really helps to hear that healing happens.

 

Good luck to you on nursing school,  we need kind and caring people in the medical field.

 

pianogirl 

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That's normal , everybody and not just benzo people normally only post negative. Think about it if you purchased a new car and the experience was great would you post online about it? Most likely not. Now on the other hand if you got screwed over would you voice your problem online somewhere? Probably . 

 

Hang in there . I only post when in crisis mode to