Depression is better!

[[Ho...]]

I wanted to come here to let everyone know you CAN and WILL have relief from this dark deep chemical depression! Mine began in tolerance withdrawal in 2009 and has been relentless ever since, even deepening more during the last 20 months of taper and healing. I could not conceive of happiness, smiling was near impossible.

 

I had slight glimpses over the last few weeks and today I found myself singing while making eggs....SINGING!!!!! This from someone who was begging to die from the depression alone!

 

This and DR have been my most disabling symptoms and I am finally getting some relief!!!!

 

I don't know what tomorrow holds because the benzo beast is so unpredictable but at least I know after 5 years of deep dark depression, there is light awaiting me!

 

I hope this encourages someone, I have been waiting so long to post improvement and the day is finally here!

[Guest [ba...]]

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[[Bo...]]

I really needed to hear this today.  I'm hopelessly depressed and have been for 15 months. 

I'm SOOO happy for u.  You definitely deserve it!!!

 

 

[Guest [Ma...]]

This is wonderful Hopeful One! Thank you for sharing this...I too needed to hear it.

[[gr...]]

I wanted to come here to let everyone know you CAN and WILL have relief from this dark deep chemical depression! Mine began in tolerance withdrawal in 2009 and has been relentless ever since, even deepening more during the last 20 months of taper and healing. I could not conceive of happiness, smiling was near impossible.

 

I had slight glimpses over the last few weeks and today I found myself singing while making eggs....SINGING!!!!! This from someone who was begging to die from the depression alone!

 

This and DR have been my most disabling symptoms and I am finally getting some relief!!!!

 

I don't know what tomorrow holds because the benzo beast is so unpredictable but at least I know after 5 years of deep dark depression, there is light awaiting me!

 

I hope this encourages someone, I have been waiting so long to post improvement and the day is finally here!

 

TY so much for posting this. I find it hard to believe it will happen for me but u wrote exactly what has happened to me.

Tolerance wd, then worsening and worsening depression as i taper.

[[be...]]

I am so happy to hear that finally you can feel some peace. You have had quite the struggle with your benzo journey. You will be a inspiration to others who are currently suffering.....

[[Ho...]]

Thank you Benzoscruel, yes, I was hit very hard with almost no relief yet other than this lifting of my spirits a bit. It has been enough to keep me pushing forward. Since I posted I have maintained a definite improvement in this area. It is still prevalent and ebbs and flows but I am not in the deep deep despair wanting to die most of the time. I can't imagine how glorious the total lifting of it will be!!!

[[sp...]]

I am praying that more windows come your way!