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Its back to school night at my 8-year-olds school tonight. Our neighbors said they would babysit but I cant bring myself to go. Too many people in the crowded hallways, seeing other parents I know, sitting in a claustrophonic classroom ay a tiny desk under fluorescent lights...am I being a baby or would this be a problem for others during withdrawal? I really would like to meet his teacher. My hubby will go and says itd fine with him. Weh! Any other parents dealing with this?
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One can only do what one can do.  You don't want a full-blown anxiety attack at your kid's school.  That being said, perhaps you could engineer the night to work for you.  Do the hallways a bit late.  Stand by the classroom door instead of sitting in a cramped little desk.  There might be ways to make it work (and you'll have your spousal unit around for support). 

 

Let us know how it goes if you decide to give it a try.  If you decide to stay home, don't beat yourself up.  Have some quality time with your kid.

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One can only do what one can do.  You don't want a full-blown anxiety attack at your kid's school.  That being said, perhaps you could engineer the night to work for you.  Do the hallways a bit late.  Stand by the classroom door instead of sitting in a cramped little desk.  There might be ways to make it work (and you'll have your spousal unit around for support). 

 

Let us know how it goes if you decide to give it a try.  If you decide to stay home, don't beat yourself up.  Have some quality time with your kid.

 

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I wussed out and stayed home. My 11-year-old daughter gave me a piano concert instead. Much more enjoyable. My favorite piece New World Symphony convinced me that staying put was the right move, or non-move!
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I think it would have been hard for many of us....I had to go to my Daughters graduation and it about killed me it felt like.

 

Omg. Me too! I had to drive to my daughters hs grad with my hubby and dad 1.5 hrs away. I held it together for the grad and open house but when we got in the car to come home I literally collapsed in the back seat, curled up in a ball, and rocked back and forth all the way home. I was in so much pain!!!!

 

If it had been anything other than hs grad I would have missed it. I only push myself for the really important events.

 

Grinch

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I am the one who goes into that school day after day, suffering from taper related insomnia, headache, stomach upset, foggy brain, etc. and teaches the children. I stand and deliver and manage classrooms full of your children, many of whom are trying to manage their own problems with ADHD, depression, anxiety, autism, oppositional defiance, bipolar and so on. Those are the conditions of the ones I can list off the top of my head. I navigate those hallways full of children and adults under glaring lights several times a day. I communicate with parents whose children are struggling in some way as well as parents of those who are succeeding. I am a sitting duck all day long for anyone who walks into my room and throws the next curve ball at me. - and there is always a curve ball, every day. I know what good teaching looks like, I've been doing it for a long time, and teaching while suffering the symptoms of tapering is not good teaching.

So I completely understand the anxiety associated with back to school night, I feel it too. If it makes you feel any better, I have talked to MANY parents who are nervous about going into their childrens' schools, even without other underlying symptoms. It brings back their own school days that may not have been pleasant, they are intimidated by the professionals who work in the building, which is a shame, since things are much better when we can all work together. I am sorry for those of you who have a hard time going to your kids' school, though it is in their best interest. This is a question I have asked myself all week as I struggled through day after day of taper related symptoms. Am I able to give 100% of myself to this job today in the condition I'm in? The answer was no each day.

Last night I failed.  I had tapered to 1.125 K. But I was a zombie. I couldn't take it anymore. I took 1.25. My symptoms are improved. I will do a better job of teaching your children today.  I feel physically better, at the same time I feel like I failed myself. Tough choice. Fail yourself, or fail those you teach. I say this to assure you that there are those who work in your child's school who are likely feeling many of the same things as you guys who struggle with this. You are not alone.

 

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I am the one who goes into that school day after day, suffering from taper related insomnia, headache, stomach upset, foggy brain, etc. and teaches the children.

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Where is the empathy emoticon?  This one will have to do, I guess.  :smitten:

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I am the one who goes into that school day after day, suffering from taper related insomnia, headache, stomach upset, foggy brain, etc. and teaches the children. I stand and deliver and manage classrooms full of your children, many of whom are trying to manage their own problems with ADHD, depression, anxiety, autism, oppositional defiance, bipolar and so on. Those are the conditions of the ones I can list off the top of my head. I navigate those hallways full of children and adults under glaring lights several times a day. I communicate with parents whose children are struggling in some way as well as parents of those who are succeeding. I am a sitting duck all day long for anyone who walks into my room and throws the next curve ball at me. - and there is always a curve ball, every day. I know what good teaching looks like, I've been doing it for a long time, and teaching while suffering the symptoms of tapering is not good teaching.

So I completely understand the anxiety associated with back to school night, I feel it too. If it makes you feel any better, I have talked to MANY parents who are nervous about going into their childrens' schools, even without other underlying symptoms. It brings back their own school days that may not have been pleasant, they are intimidated by the professionals who work in the building, which is a shame, since things are much better when we can all work together. I am sorry for those of you who have a hard time going to your kids' school, though it is in their best interest. This is a question I have asked myself all week as I struggled through day after day of taper related symptoms. Am I able to give 100% of myself to this job today in the condition I'm in? The answer was no each day.

Last night I failed.  I had tapered to 1.125 K. But I was a zombie. I couldn't take it anymore. I took 1.25. My symptoms are improved. I will do a better job of teaching your children today.  I feel physically better, at the same time I feel like I failed myself. Tough choice. Fail yourself, or fail those you teach. I say this to assure you that there are those who work in your child's school who are likely feeling many of the same things as you guys who struggle with this. You are not alone.

 

You are absolutely incredible to be able to do this day after day.  I'm a retired K/1 teacher and could not have done it.  Could.  Not.

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Trode, Teachers are my heroes. Thank you so much for all you do. I never imagine them having mental issues. I have always thought that they are cut from super-human cloth. They keep it togethet every day under pressure from all sides, and then go home and deal with their own family life. I salute you!
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