what is this?

[[wo...]]

Just finished 6 months.

Everything has calmed down but now this new sx that really has me baffled.

I just lie here... takes me hours to get up or turn over or even move.  I just lie on the bed and stay in the same position for hours.  I keep saying get up but my body does not respond.

I am not sleeping and my mind is not racing but I am just a dead lump.

It has taken me days to even log on and ask what is going on.

I don't get up to eat or anything.  Do not even feel the need to distract.... just lay here in a stupor almost.

Takes hours to move to go to the bathroom.

Not hyper or agitated but' just dead like.

Two weeks ago I was getting out some, at least moving around the house, getting dressed, bathing etc. But now I am not even doing that......WHAT IS THIS??

I do not feel depressed or anxious..... it is the exact opposite of akethesia....complete deadness.

Ever heard of this?

I do not even feel like talking anymore, just lie here like I am in a coma.

The calmness is nice but I don't get why I can't even move... not even to eat or watch TV or anything.

I am just a numb blob...... it is scary.

[[Dr...]]

Hi worried,

I'm just ending my 5th month and am already getting a little of that. I wake up each day about 4:30 am and just lie there. My only activity is to listen to the tinnitus concert and stare into the dark. At first I tried to go back to sleep. Left side. Right side. Left side...Nothing. Look at the clock again. Lie on my back some more. Thinking about basically nothing. Just listening. Actually I'm not listening now that I'm talking about it here. What I am doing is just hearing. Hearing and staring into the dark. And I don't want to get up. Even when I know I have to go to the bathroom it takes quite a bit of time and a very uncomfortable feeling to finally force myself to go. Then back to bed and just lied there for another couple of hours or so. And I can't ever think of a good reason to get up. 

[[ca...]]

I have glimpses of this when i am not having anxiety.  Maybe this is anhedonia??  Its definitely linked to not feeling motivation.  My mom just calls me lazy and in some ways she is right.  I feel all sorts of lazy and can't see why i need to move.

[[wo...]]

We are all about the same time off I think, could this be a sign of healing?

I know River Wolf once spoke of a time of "calm flatness"......I hope it leads to a return of feel good chemicals returning.

I only pray this is what is happening, it brings hopelessness and a fear of ever recovering to the forefront for me.

I try so hard to think positive but this is so hard.

Keep in touch and let us hope it passes soon.

[[Dr...]]

Worried, please don't lose hope with this. I am right with you in this insanity. I too, and very often lately, wonder if this is not going to stop. That is so easy to do when we are not in our "right" minds. That has got to be just another lie being told to us by the drug. Klonopin is the worlds most addictive drug. It proves that to us every day. You be strong. Don't push yourself. Don't force yourself. You are going to be better. I tell you these things because I know I need to believe them myself. It seems to help me while trying to convince you of this. God loves you. This is not His fault.  But I think you know that already. Please be patient. 

[[Si...]]

I've had some spells of lethargy lately where I'm tired all the time. I'm basically at 4 months off now. No where near as bad as you, but I think it is certainly from healing. Our brains are trying like hell to repair the damage by building new and repairing existing GABAA receptors. That plus the brain is probably so worn out from the constant glutamate assault we've all been under for so long, that it may reach a point of just shifting down for a while to assess what's going on. That's only my guess though.

[[Dr...]]

That's a very good guess thought Siggy. Sounds like sound reasoning to me even in this strange state of existence.

[[da...]]

It seems the same I feel when I get the flu or a bad cold. Just laying there, unable to sleep, unable to watch TV, unable to do anything.

Maybe is a weird body mechanism that puts us in a sort is stasis while healing ...

[[it...]]

I have this bad at 8 months everything's blah weird no motivation along with symptoms a lot of head stuff light physical weak fatigue bored um and range if weird emotions ..it started 6 for me aswell its a yucky feeling.