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Hopefully someone who has healed with help me with this.  Anyone symptoms go on and on not really getting much worse but not getting better either? I'm at 14 months and the suffering is following a pattern with my cycle and just seems to be the same every month. I'm hoping some that have gone before me also experienced this and will give me some hope. I seriously feel stuck this way.

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Really? 18 people and no one says anything? Well I'm screwed! Lol

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I do! I think I wrote a pot about it some time ago. Its the same symptoms every day for months. Very small changes, but still the same.

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Post! Not pot.

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Are you any better?

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Hello HS

 

I am not sure if you just want to hear from  buddies whose symptoms follow a monthly cycle. Maybe that is why folk are reading your post and not replying.

 

I am way past the monthly cycle stage and I have been off benzos for almost 18 months.

 

In some ways I have made progress - no longer depressed, no longer feel extremely ill 24/7. These two things mean I feel a lot better physically and emotionally. However, in terms of physical functioning not much has changed. I am in bed 95% of the time. Any attempt to get up and do anything makes me feel very ill very quickly. This lack of functioning makes me feel, at times, I will never get better. Cognitive functioning is improving but so so slowly. Unable to read or concentrate on tv. But I can use internet now. 

 

I can only see change with hindsight and I have assess over a 3 month period. Less than that is pretty useless.

 

Hope that is of some help.

 

At least you have got one more reply. 

 

LF

 

 

 

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ya I wasn't looking for people with the monthly cycle problem.  Just looking for those who sxs seem to follow a pattern every month and not getting much better.

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Hi Healingslowly,

 

The same thing is happening to me. I'm 14 months out too and my symptoms change with my cycle.

 

Like you they haven't gotten better or worse. Some good days, some bad days but very little change between months.

 

I hope you feel better soon.

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Oh Wow bd1919-  You only took 8 doses and this is how long you've had withdrawals???  Is it partially withdrawals from citalopram.  I just took two years to taper off mine and I have to wonder if I am feeling the affects from that too.  I am 8 months off Celexa now.

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Hey Castillo,

 

Personally I think that if you're withdrawing from another medication, you become super-sensitive if you add any other meds into the mix. So you're more likely to develop a dependency.

 

I read another similar story to i=mine on here not so long ago.

 

I believe that because I was going through citalopram withdrawal at the time I took the valium (in fact it was because on withdrawal insomnia I took the valium), I became dependant on the valium super-fast.

 

I updosed back to 20 mg citalopram in March 2013 so I don't believe my symptoms are at all related to the citalopram any more.

 

If I'd left the valium alone I'd be healed by now(:

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Just looking for those who sxs seem to follow a pattern every month and not getting much better.

 

honestly, i noticed a pattern and a slight change at 5-6 month intervals. which is way to slow for me and i wish things would move along a little faster.

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Personally I think that if you're withdrawing from another medication, you become super-sensitive if you add any other meds into the mix. So you're more likely to develop a dependency.

 

I have a similar view. Also, starting something again can make it harder to taper from it. My own experience comes from amitriptyline.

 

Basically, I think tapering should be planned the way that no new meds are added in the middle of that. I think the aim is to be med free, at least free from psycho active meds.

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I have been in a pattern of good day/bad day for 7 months now. Both good days and bad days seem yo be getting better, but the pattern holds strong. Really getting tired of it...

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Personally I think that if you're withdrawing from another medication, you become super-sensitive if you add any other meds into the mix. So you're more likely to develop a dependency.

 

I have a similar view. Also, starting something again can make it harder to taper from it. My own experience comes from amitriptyline.

 

Basically, I think tapering should be planned the way that no new meds are added in the middle of that. I think the aim is to be med free, at least free from psycho active meds.

 

 

Porthan,

 

can you please tell me your experience with amitriptyline? i have been having horrible insomnia the last 2 weeks and i had to take 1/4 amitriptyline last night or i thought i would snap and harm myself. i just had to. but i absolutely do not wish to go down that road of needing to take anything for sleep. and i haven't been needing to take anything. but the last 2 weeks have been pretty scary because i can't even engage in fantasy or my own thoughts that usually get me through. my brain is on high alert and very obsessed about where the next sound will come from and it's maddening!!

 

thanks, Pretty

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Pretty, we Are both long time benzo users. I have always used benzo together With amitriptyline. That's why I don't know What the effect of the benzo was, What was the effect of amitriptyline. During my taper I thought that the benzo is the bigger evil. This might be false thinking.

 

After I had finished my taper (benzo & amitriptyline) I started amitriptyline again. I felt right away it' sedating. I slept well. It didn't help for very long, couple of days only, then I felt I have to take a bigger dose.

 

Now I have been tapering amitriptyline. This is much harder than my Original taper. This has been a lesson for me that there is no free lunch. If a med helps, it's not good for You. I seriously think that starting the Support meds can be Something You might regret as much as starting benzos in the First place.

 

I know This sounds very strict. But if there would be drugs that help we would all use them. If drinking alcohol would help with sxs many of us would be drinking. I think people here desperately want to feel better. When you read success stories, or those that inspire you most, you certainly look what these people have done and what not. I don't see them feeling better than ever and doing a lot of meds they started during withdrawal.

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Porthan,

 

i won't be using the amitriptyline. i don't want to get on another med when i've had this much trouble getting off the benzo's. it was just that other night with no sleep and my mind not being able to calm down and then waiting and listening for the next sound to startle me was too much. i had to take something to get me to sleep just that night. it was horrible. i may have to go without sleep for some more night again but as long as that anticipitory anxiety of which sound will startle me is not happening, i don't care if i don't fall asleep. as long as my mind is more calm i will go without the sleep for some nights. for some reason it's been 17 nights that this insomnia has started. i'm afraid that new symptoms are popping up for me, i just hope it's a good thing and a healing sign.