my life is over

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no matter what I do I just cant do it, just like you guys I drive everyone nuts, so upset about this pain, called doc six times would not see me, as I am a hyperscondriac no one believes me anymore, people treat you like I child, I guess in some ways I get so scared I act like one, see no way out of this depression, ocd, anxiety, cant even try, this has become my life, what a strong person I use to be, don't even care about life anymore, no one wants to be around or call because of this, I have lost my life

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Chicky:

 

Didn't we all tell you that this is how it would be if you dropped by 50% You can always updose. And I think if your call your doc 6 more times, he will drop  you. No doc wants to deal with a complex troublesome patient. And you are not driving us nuts. I think it's the other way around. Hang in there. Life is worth living!  ~~ Betsy

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Chicky/Barb

 

Your life is not over. Yes, you are in pain. Have you tried painkillers of any sort? Did they help at all?

 

I don't know how bad the pain is but it will get better.

 

If it is unbearable you have the option of taking more valium but best to make sure it is w/d first.

 

I see from your other thread that it may be a virus. If it is, it should go away.  You must be rundown so it would make sense. Try to stick to one thread so we can follow what is happening.

 

No harm in going to the dentist to see if it is a tooth.

 

The doctor did see you so best not to keep phoning him. He can't keep seeing you all the time.  He must have lots of other patients.

 

 

LF 

 

 

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Chicky

Have you thought about asking the doc to put you back on Ativan and taper you slowly off that onto valium? Your body is use to Ativan. My doc tried putting me on klonopin...couldn't take it.

 

Then tried to switch me straight over from xanax to valium. Said they were the same I wouldn't have any problems. Haha! That was a joke. Like to have died. Took Ashton manual I printed off to new doc who put me back on xanax and tapered me over to valium.

 

That might be the only way to get you any quick relief.  You were c/t off Ativan so you're probably having w/d from that too. Just a thought as I hate to see anyone suffer...I know first hand how bad it is.

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Chicky

Have you thought about asking the doc to put you back on Ativan and taper you slowly off that onto valium? Your body is use to Ativan. My doc tried putting me on klonopin...couldn't take it.

 

Then tried to switch me straight over from xanax to valium. Said they were the same I wouldn't have any problems. Haha! That was a joke. Like to have died. Took Ashton manual I printed off to new doc who put me back on xanax and tapered me over to valium.

 

That might be the only way to get you any quick relief.  You were c/t off Ativan so you're probably having w/d from that too. Just a thought as I hate to see anyone suffer...I know first hand how bad it is.

 

She's already made 4 C/Os in a period of 10 weeks. I don't think her body can handle another one~~Bets

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Bets

 

I was thinking that too.

 

LF 

[[Pl...]]

Sorry...just trying to help. I'm suffering myself and I hate seeing anyone suffer. Bets would you mind looking at my post about whether to go up? I would really appreciate some advise.

[[ch...]]

it was my reg doc I was calling about the pain, this is what I do, I get so scared over everything, I am tired of being a pain to docs, family, I do not see the light at the end of this tunnel,

[[be...]]

Sorry...just trying to help. I'm suffering myself and I hate seeing anyone suffer. Bets would you mind looking at my post about whether to go up? I would really appreciate some advise.

 

Plum:

 

What is the title of your post and what section is it in? Remember, I m not a doctor. Simply a member of BB like the rest of us. So I don't think my advice would be better than any of the rest, but I'll give it a try. Just take it with a grain of salt. ~~ Bets

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it was my reg doc I was calling about the pain, this is what I do, I get so scared over everything, I am tired of being a pain to docs, family, I do not see the light at the end of this tunnel.

 

Chicky

 

We often don't see the light but it is still there. To be honest, I can't see the light either but I do hope it is there somewhere. The tunnel won't always be this dark. It will get lighter and the  journey easier to cope with.

 

Just have faith that you are not alone.

 

LF 

 

LVf

 

 

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it was my reg doc I was calling about the pain, this is what I do, I get so scared over everything, I am tired of being a pain to docs, family, I do not see the light at the end of this tunnel,

 

Barb:

 

I think I mentioned to you in another one of your posts that you might want to see an ENT man. I think the moderators should combine your posts. I find them difficult to follow. I keep forgetting where I made a reply to you. I know you're  scared, hon, but you just have to do the best you can right now. Just keep posting us and posting us. But please, do not start another thread. Just continue on the ones you have. We ALL get it. Do you have a good friend you can rely on? Or a sibling? ~~ Bets

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bets I replied to you on the it started post, can you look at that, just need some reassurence

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bets I replied to you on the it started post, can you look at that, just need some reassurence

 

Okay. I'll take a look see.

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Whats an ent? I can relate im driving my hubbys family and all my docs nuts. Can't shake this overwhelming feeling im going to die, either from staying on the med or not getting off. Been through so much this last year moving for my husbands job becoming isolated up north then before that dropped my remeron which may have attributed to the anxiety then drank then took ativan then stopped drinking in jan stYed on ativan was updosed on ativan then switched to klono body couldnt handle it was itching like crazy for 3 weeks then hubby lost job we moved for then lost another job then i was switched to librium worst drug on eRth then had to start getting caregivers to tAke care of me and my kids then psych dropped me mid taper, then ended up with new psych a chemical dependency psych weird psychologist, hubby lost another job was put in mh by psychologist cause he thought they would detox me there instead they upped my meds pit me on new meds. Then had to go back cause husband was going crazy hearing voices. Then moved downsouth to live with my inlaws house up north is being packed. Trying to find new doctors feel like Im retarded sometimes i talk and sentences dont come out right i cant do basic things i used to be able to do and now everyone wants me to just snap out of it. Oh yeah abd insurance runs out in a few days and have lost 90 lbs in six months while I was dropping and have a 1&1/2 yr old and 3&1\2 year old and miss the old me it actually hasnt even been a whole year ive been going throught this Oct marks a year. My point is youve been through a lot with all the med switches and lack of support and im right beside you desperate for answers feeling like Ill never be me again. But the hypocobdria and calling docs all the time will get you in trouble it got me in trouble now that i cant depend on those docs i feel like im left to drift out at sea by myself. Im told it gets better just hold on and read success stories, it helps. Hope you feel better soon and I too had to show my pdoc ashton manual.

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thanks mommy of 2, ,sorry you have had to go through this but it makes me feel better that I am not the only one who feels the way you do, sometimes you do feel like you are going crazy, its awful, esp, when others start to think that ! it does make you feel alone as others don't understand, wish you the best and hope that you will soon feel yourself !

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Chicky,

 

Everyone feels the way you do at some point. Some of us have a harder time comin off this crap and that is reality. It is pure torchure!! But so are a lot of other things in life and so we have to persevere if we want to win this battle. No matter how hard it is! Keep fighting and be free one day!

 

Grinch

[[be...]]

Whats an ent? I can relate im driving my hubbys family and all my docs nuts. Can't shake this overwhelming feeling im going to die, either from staying on the med or not getting off. Been through so much this last year moving for my husbands job becoming isolated up north then before that dropped my remeron which may have attributed to the anxiety then drank then took ativan then stopped drinking in jan stYed on ativan was updosed on ativan then switched to klono body couldnt handle it was itching like crazy for 3 weeks then hubby lost job we moved for then lost another job then i was switched to librium worst drug on eRth then had to start getting caregivers to tAke care of me and my kids then psych dropped me mid taper, then ended up with new psych a chemical dependency psych weird psychologist, hubby lost another job was put in mh by psychologist cause he thought they would detox me there instead they upped my meds pit me on new meds. Then had to go back cause husband was going crazy hearing voices. Then moved downsouth to live with my inlaws house up north is being packed. Trying to find new doctors feel like Im retarded sometimes i talk and sentences dont come out right i cant do basic things i used to be able to do and now everyone wants me to just snap out of it. Oh yeah abd insurance runs out in a few days and have lost 90 lbs in six months while I was dropping and have a 1&1/2 yr old and 3&1\2 year old and miss the old me it actually hasnt even been a whole year ive been going throught this Oct marks a year. My point is youve been through a lot with all the med switches and lack of support and im right beside you desperate for answers feeling like Ill never be me again. But the hypocobdria and calling docs all the time will get you in trouble it got me in trouble now that i cant depend on those docs i feel like im left to drift out at sea by myself. Im told it gets better just hold on and read success stories, it helps. Hope you feel better soon and I too had to show my pdoc ashton manual.

 

 

 

 

 

Hi Mom:

 

ENT means ears, nose and throat specialist. ~~ Bets

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update, just went to dentist, very very bad infected abscessed tooth, need root canal, he said it can be the worst pain ever and I am here to tell you he is right,put me on antibiotics , hey, at least I know what it is, as far as the little sores on roof of mouth was not concerned at all, says nothing to worry about, so like I said at least I know whats going on, he says I prob have had it awhile. boy was I anxious going as I do with this stuff but said need to put big girl pants on and do it, glad I did, as far as other stuff, very depressed and anxiety but I guess with med change that is to be expected, I am sure when it calms down will still have some of this stuff as had it before, just have to learn some coping skills I guess, again I want to thank everyone for all of your support and time you r putting in to help me, hope you are all doing well

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Hi chicky

 

I am so pleased it is a tooth after all.  At least that can be sorted. You must be so relieved.

 

You sound very positive today.  That is good. I hope the depression and anxiety don't get too bad for you but it sounds as though you are coping a bit better.

 

Do you think coming off the klonopin has helped or is it too early to say?

 

Yes, new coping skills may be needed but it is better than drugs. 

 

I have slept half the day and brain very sluggish. 

 

LF 

 

 

[[ch...]]

am relieved, as nuts as that sounds, no one wants root canal , but so glad to know what it is, sorry you dont feel up to pare today, I just want to thank you and so many hear on bb, you have been my friend since day no. one and have been so kind, wish you didn't live half way across the world ! when you are depressed as we all know you feel so alone but bb has shown me there r such good people out there in the world ! thank you all, am here if anyone ever needs me, even just to chat ! barb

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chicky,

What antibiotic are you taking for your infection?

 

I don't want to start any needless worry, but I think we're supposed to stay away from certain kinds of antibiotics because they flare up symptoms. Just Googled it--fluoroquinolones, like Cipro, are hard on the nervous system.

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Hi Barb

 

It is good to hear you sounding better.  An infected tooth is better than withdrawal symptoms that is for sure. Was always glad to help and support you and hope you will have a good recovery from all this.  It sounds as though the switch to valium was the right thing for you or is it too early to say that?

 

You can keep me going when I get low.  Reading what other Buddies put up with makes me very grateful for my very manageable situation.  I get despondent and low but soon bounce back up again.  I had a friend visiting in the evening and that always helps a lot.  I never imagined I would manage to cope with so little company but most of the time I don't feel up to it which is a shame.

 

I hope you can sleep tonight.

 

Are you managing to eat a little bit?

 

LF ♥♡♥♡♥

 

 

 

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am relieved, as nuts as that sounds, no one wants root canal , but so glad to know what it is, sorry you dont feel up to pare today, I just want to thank you and so many hear on bb, you have been my friend since day no. one and have been so kind, wish you didn't live half way across the world ! when you are depressed as we all know you feel so alone but bb has shown me there r such good people out there in the world ! thank you all, am here if anyone ever needs me, even just to chat ! barb

 

Chicky:

 

I just wrote you a long post and it disappeared like magic. Either I hate my computer or dislike the  BB OS. What I said is that  you have both good news and bad. The good news is that you complained about you problem and your dentist and BF down  played the whole matter. Now you can stick it in their faces. The bad news is your tooth problem. Believe me, you're not alone about having a root canal done. I woke up one day in sheer tooth pain. It was just unbearable. But it was a three day weekend so my dentist was closed. So I called the on call dentist and she scripted me Oxycodone. I was in so much pain that I picked up the script. But I thought long and hard as to whether I wanted to take an opiate. I decided, no, I will deal with this with Tylenol. I didn't want a risk of ruining my taper or having another addictive drug in my body. So I flushed them down the toilet. There were several nights I laid awake at 3 am b/c I couldn't eat or sleep for the four days. I wished I had kept those pills at those times. But in hindsight, I am proud of myself that I had the discipline to avoid the pain killers. The Tylenol didn't work.

 

I hope you are going to see an endodonest rather than a regular dentist. That's all they do: Root canals. 1,000s of them. I was in terror as to how it would go. But Chicky, it was a piece of cake. No pain at all. Just very boooooring. Mine said if you have a bad infection in your tooth, then it is useless to take an antibiotic. That's b/c the nerves in you tooth are all filled up with infection. There is no room for blood to stream thru your nerves. And antibiotics need a steady  flow of blood in order for them to work. And since the tooth is just filled to the max with infection, an antibiotic can't get thru. I hope you soon find the relief b/c I can almost feel the pain myself. The only minor problem I had was a bit of soreness in my mouth for  single day. After that, I didn't even notice that I had one done. But Wow! The $$$$$. ~~ Bets

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Bets

 

Too much info  >

 

I HATE DENTISTS  :tickedoff:

 

NUMBER 1 COWARD 

 

LF 

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chicky,

What antibiotic are you taking for your infection?

 

I don't want to start any needless worry, but I think we're supposed to stay away from certain kinds of antibiotics because they flare up symptoms. Just Googled it--fluoroquinolones, like Cipro, are hard on the nervous system.

 

They also effect your GABA..~~ Bets