Etizolam to Diclazepam

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OK, here we go...again. I am sorry if my post gets confusing, but ill try anyway.

 

Around the beginning of May 2014, I started Etizolam (Etilaam, and the Concern brands). I found the Etizest MD to be the best (Concern Pharms India?) Anyhow they have been genuine, effective, and well quite addicting. Like all addicts, I thought I could control myself after being off benzos around four months.

 

Fast forward to today, I currently need at least 15-18 mg etizolam to function. Some days up to 30 mg plus. Bad I know. I also take 3 mg Suboxone daily. I know the CNS risk involved. For the first two months, I loved it, and knew the risks of addiction. But when that euphoria kicked in, I could have cared less. Also in the first two months, I scored a awesome job. TBH, I thought I needed the Etizolam to get the job and function so people didn't see my severe anxiety, like in my other jobs.

 

Now when I take Etizolam, I become dysphoric, very sleepy, and irritated. I can barely hang out with what friends I have left. Also, my depression has gotten very severe in the last month. I can't even clean my house very much, let alone bills. But I still work and love it, partly because I am not alone and love people. Social anxiety, without benzos is horrible. WD and people is unbearable.

 

I have 5 grams of Diclazepam powder. I don't know exact purity but it works. I tested 3mg and felt more level from the constant ups and downs of Etizolam's half life. Can I use the Propylene Glycol I have (Food Grade, high quality). Or do I need something else like alcohol to make a solution of 3mg/1ml? I am sick of benzos, literally. Feels like poison. The buzz is even annoying to say the least because of side effects.

 

Diclazepam IMO is better than a Valium or Librium taper (Less good metabolites). Luckily, last time I weened of with Diclazepam, I jumped at 6 mg with no WD effects. I have been taking benzos since I was 17. Became "truly" addicted to Xanax, Soma, Phenazepam, or whatever for two years straight at age 24. The kindling effect is true. I hope this works.

 

Last question, since my long love for any GABAergics, how long should I taper for?

 

I lied, how does Lorazepam (metabolite of Diclazepam, along with DeLorazepam have a half life of 42 hours when Ativan has a half life of approx. 12 hours? I read that online?) Damn Wiki pedia